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Thursday, October 28, 2004

{ freed on 1:35 AM

hahaz..juz now had ma bio os prac sey..mr shanmugam sae b4 da prac tt its "mouth-watering"..klam kabut gegerl flip thru da notes carik labellin 4 pears, apples etc..related wif food mah!..skali we found out it was prawns!...trus dlm hati ckp "sabar nisa, sabar.."nasib baik lum masak, klau tk, mcm nk bedal jer!..yup, had 2 draw da prawns big2 ..lucki no nd 2 label..mine was abit cacat la n nadiah saed tt her prawn lok lik predator sak!..keke..den do duno wat food test la..at 1st i wrote specimen C to be urine but i lo0k again, its white in colour! tk mungkin..den blood plasma colour yellow~!..cept2 switch ans sey..haha..da rm bau hamis sey..tt prawns la..finalli pracs OVA..now theory..sux.. ;(..wahaaha wan tk abis2 ajk me go gym..newayz, hopes he's feelin beta now...slamt berbuke 2 u t0o..

dun tink ill b bloggin much nowadaes..afta os, ill update evridae NO prob..hahaz..outz

Sunday, October 24, 2004

{ freed on 1:41 AM

hola! hehe..yest me, qid, yani, shukur, yo, yo's guy, yana n 2 oder pple wen 2 geylang..buat pe? jln2 cari mat..haha! tkla..nengok2..see da environment..had 2 wait quite long for shukur..but nvm..he so hensem sey..k, yani, he's URS!! haha..we bought burger ramli abe menyangkung buka kat blakng homart..sedih sak..ish2..afta eatin, wait 4 pop..n his fwens..bwk satu kumpulan sey..bois in black..haiyo..haha..kekek sey nengok yana melting 4 snowcap..haha..yup, he's hensem..no doubt..tk sia2 aku ikut.!! haha gatal nisa..

den we rounding2 ar tt place..we becum lik sardines ..pack giler nye..tersrmpk ngan khairunnisa..haha..sempt sey..den we go joo chiat n hang arnd..now i tink i hv phobia 4 takin escalators..aiyo wen we stepped on da escalator 2 go down, da ting sudenli laju sak..da mcm rollercoaster sey..kesian ader mkck2 kat dpn hilang bag..i collapse on da guy in front of me, n da prson behind collapse on me..da mcm sandwich..lucki we're not hurt..haha..at last balik kul 11+..omg..my mom's face mcm lemon..ank dara mithali..haha..trus cabut msuk dlm bilik sey..k la, outz

Saturday, October 23, 2004

{ freed on 10:57 PM

yest had our grad dae..met qid at cck interchge n off we went..haha..i can clearly spot unitians thou far as we were all wearin white top n black pants/skrt..cam nk gi interview gituk..den we set off on our journey 2 cari SAFETY PIN..! cari 7-11, tkde..cari kat kdi stationary tkde..at lst gi kedai homemart abe da nyonya nvr smile at all sey..such a turn off..haha..den we rushed 2 da toilet n did sumtin obscene..HA!..tt qid wan me 2 put pin bhin her top 2 tighten it..den i rushed 2 get ma gowns..heavy sia..da jadi mcm bdk kindergarden alik!..dunoe how we l0ok lik wif da mortar board..;)

Lps tu we all sudenli becum famous..pple heret me evriwhere 2 take pics..haha..my face muscle sudenli cramp..smile t0o much..hehe..but nvm, le order bnyk2..memories per..i nvr take wif tanya sia..sier cabot siang2..alamak kentot ar..da fo0d 4 break fast was oraite..rice n ayam..chili da kena bedal..den wana terawih psl its da 8th dae but no telekung..so we walk2..sum guys uzur kaper? tk solat..haish..den ceremony starts..fuck sia..y muz dey show our nerdy faces on screen?? karut sey..tk ckp memalukan per?..nemin..thick skin abit..nasib tkde orng boo..;)

surprisesurprise, im din cry yest! haha..asl eh? 2 all my frens, I LUB U ALL SO MUCHX..gd lux k guys 4 ur future!..dun 4get me n dun 4get to miss me! cey..cm btul jer..haha

Friday, October 22, 2004

{ freed on 7:18 PM

hmm...bOring nk mampos..2dae no skul so im kinda free now..haha..changed my blog pic..sho kiut sey~!..anywaes, yest had my o lvl chem prac..surprisinli its nt diff sia..mr shanmugam came up 2 me n showed a "thumbs up" sign..haha..so hapi..i guess i lik pracs more den theory..duh!..haha..den after tt me, nisa, tanya, yani go study emaths till 4pm ( i tink)..da skul was lik a cemetery..onli ceketoit studens left..haiyo..so bored..kpt mugginmuginn mugin oni.. ;(

2dae we'll b havin graduatn dae..at least buka wif our frens sia..laz min ct blang me tt i receive cca award..haha..syukur..hmm...i tink i upsetted sum1..not sure..playin oni ryte?? he purposeli toked 2 me in chinese(mntg2 campuran) n i saed " perr kao bebual setannnn??" den he majuk..mepek la..k, tiu pu ci..hapi? haha..WAT oni..;)

Reality CHECK!! 11 more daes pple!! to wat? o lvls la deng! haha..tata

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

{ freed on 1:26 AM

been wondering wats up wif me 2dae..gl0omy n full of angst..sad n depressed..screaming inside..went hm, stormed myself in da rm, slammed da bl0ody door n locked da rm..blast da radio n threw da pillows..threw evriting in sight n punched da wall..it hurts but wadeheck..tears fall n i wept silentli..i noe i shouldnt be cryin but it juz flows..dun ask y..hate myself..evriting..hopeless..

mr shanmugam tetibe came up 2 me n saed "Nisaaini im veri dissapointed in u. wat happened 2 ur results? ur paper 2 pulled dwn ur marks n i tink u failed." YEAH. i failed my chem 4 da 1st tyme. its n0t dat ive not failed at all, but i feel demoralised amng my frens...noein tt i can do better but im n0t interested. Putting in much effort but dis happens. tanya, im sori if i hurt ur feelings juz now, as in i saed tt i hated u evritime u scored As wif0ut much effort. Face it nisa. Stop being pessimistic alreadi. I cant blame u. Throughout OBT lesson i kept quiet. Screamin inside. On chem lesson, i cried. noone noticed but i did. Juz wana let out my feelings coz im SUCH a perfectionist.

At da interchange, saw him. As if my dae is not bad enuff. My face was lik a lemon. He turned arnd, looked, turn, look again n turn back. My mind was blank, n din even smiled. wen i looked at him, he alreadi turned back. i was lik, "AHHHH, cant b bodered!" wen we sat dwn den i t0ld qid. Usuali i wld get excited n smile. But i din. duno y. Again, cant b bodered. I guess so did he. so, whu cares aniwae. ARRGGHHH...

If i offended ani1, im sori. Juz wana vent out my frustratns. Sabar, nanti biler aku solat akanku doa bnyk2 untk tenangkan otk ni. Wassalam.

Monday, October 18, 2004

{ freed on 11:55 PM

haiz..soo tired in sch..wish i cld juz get OUT of dat sch asap..nuthin new 4 me 2 explore..(im adventurous) n cuci mata..haha(jk)..newayz, g0t back sum of ma prelim results juz n0w..haiyo, y dun dey release all da results at ONE go? den pple can b depressed oni on 1 dae..da whole dae..tts betta den depressed fa 3-4 daes ryte? yup, actuali ma results improved sey!! whoa soo hapi..midyr nearly all c5/c6 but now no Cs..haha..;) Nah, klau nk tau:

Eng: B4 (shux, becoz of ma st00pid oral marks)
Emaths: B4 (soo hapi coz midyr got c6)
Phys: B3 (midyr got c6..whee)
Bio: B3 (midyr got c5..yah0o)
SS + Geo: B3 (same lar..maintain beb)
Amaths p2: FAIL (if i get p1 n add up 2geder, confirm FAIL..haha)

k, tts b0ut all..haben receive chem(gosh, sure get Cs one coz nvr study) n amaths p2...k, canot go jc at all..so hapi..heehe..mayb go sp lar..nearest..congratz 2 all my frens whu scored well..dose whu dun, st0p cryin lik a baby n slap urself in fr0nt of da mirror..haha..brutal sey..tts wat mr arul sae weneva we flunk his papers..haha..k outz ;)

Friday, October 15, 2004

{ freed on 11:44 PM

WwoohOo prelimz oVa..ermm..tade amik amaths pp..well..it was damn "easy"..can "pass" la.."np"..mcm nk terberanak ader ar..mayb coz i tk blajr tul2..nengok spore idol wad yest..taufik dye his hair not nyce..woit, dye back la!..tt christopher sing lik gerl..mcm nk sumbat kapas dlm lubang telinge ni..haha..den maia so sexy, i Like!..den anoder guy lik so plastic..he tink if he smile alot pple will vote 4 him ar? haiz..alamk, kena lecture ngan wan..aperda..ckp tk gi terawih la, tk insaf la..yela tuuu..dier jer yg btul..haha..u ajk i gi gym ngan u? EXERCISE kaper...kaka wadeva la..

k..ive heard a new song..kinda techno la but wadeheck..kiut sey..juz now khairunnisa n tanya was singin it in class n i was lik,"huh?" da mcm duo sey dorng nyanyi..hehe..here's da lyrics:
Baby cakes you just don't know, knowhow i i, i like it down low, low and i just want you to know that i think our love will grow we'll take it step by step because i'm not something you own [x2]

k 2 u all..SLMAT BERPUASE..haha

Monday, October 11, 2004

{ freed on 10:49 PM

fark sia..erm..friendster acc0unt deleted AGAIN..haz..dun tink im bodered 2 make new 1..haiz..nemind..been havin prelims dis wk..somehw cannot force maself 2 study in da aftern0on..onli tune in at nyte..habit mayb..got 2 noe my bio p1..not up 2 expectatn..tanya n nisa got highest..ceyba..yeah2 tanya..t0ld me tyme n again u gona flunk..bud wait, now lo0k whu's tokin?? haha..nvr study much oso so pro..u hv da brains so d0esnt matter if study or n0t..so shadap la kutu..haha..em p2 ok la..nethin betta den amaths..luckily mdm ng cum 2 me n saed my graph senget..haha..den she oso saed "do da qns u comfortable wif"..iwas struggling wif bearings n wen she saed tt i flipped n saw lots more qns 2 go..mcm tau jer ape orng nga buat..haha..lucky got her..k wadeva..off to masak nasi..outz

Saturday, October 09, 2004

{ freed on 1:57 AM

halo pple..been bz lateli...mugging n stuffs..my family oreadi start 2 plan 4 hari raya..cant wait..my bro n kak nani alreadi painting da hse..so nyce da colour..all thx 2 kk nani..haha..yellow n brown for da pillar..so nyce n brite..if nite oso lo0k lik in da mornin..hehe..coincidentally same colour (yellow) which is oso this yr's colour for my whole famili's baju..been feelin kinda loneli lately..feelin unappreciated..left out..isolated..wen i go hm evridae, no1 to share my dae wif..2 entertain me..thnkful tt i hv kk nani..she's da bestest sis-inlaw anione can hv..more lik a fren 2 me..thank u for listenin 2 my probs at nyte..n comfortin me evrityme im down n stressed out..my lyfe has been betta wen u're arnd..and bro, pls take care of dis swit gerl of urs..dun let her go..coz she is lik a blessing 2 our family..sharing wif me make-ups n stuff..nvr lacking of jokes..hahaz..to kak nani..here's a BIG hug fer u..***HUGS*** ;)

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

To be hurt,To feel lost,To be left out in the dark

To be kicked,When you're down,To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

When no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more,Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?

With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alright

You don't know what it's like to be like me...

Simple Plan (Welcome 2 my life)

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

{ freed on 2:14 AM

hola!..im bored..yupz, u guessed it..o lebels..now's da tyme i destress maself..n write crap..! if ya dun mind..hahaz..erm..fazlyana? well gurl..sowie..i dun tink i rem u..coz u noe im da pemalu type..alwaes in my own werld..tk bnyk bebual..so, i onli mix well wif my 6G class arh..so, as u had saed, klau tk knal, leh kanl2 kan??!! hahaz..btul tu..i can rem pples face but not name..gundu sey..hehe..

juz wana sae gd luck 2 evrione takin deir n lvls..in my skul n oso in oder skul..pelan2 kayuh yer kwn!..study hard coz it all adds up 2 a brighter future..;)..yup, yest had a fun tyme chattin wif hazwan..nisa's cuz..such a funnie person..askin me fer tips on wat 2 wear for his grad nite n stuff..at last he saed tt he will wear lik his oder cuzzie(ridwan)..haiyo! pinjam skali la dari dier..kan senang..tkya klua duit..btul tk?..kem slm kat naz..n nisa sae mualikumsalam..i/ll ask naz wat she will b wearing k so dun wori..hehez..gd luck fer yer os t0o btw..

n to me, tyme To mUg!! MuggIng'S FuN!! yeah ryte.. ;) crap i noe..

Monday, October 04, 2004

{ freed on 1:56 AM

heyz tanya...
juz wana tell u tt..
if u hv any probs pls tell mie...
so tt i can try my best 2 help...
i noe wat ure feelin rite now..
n if i was in ur place, i wld feel da same..
think abt da past..
u saed u're scared..
n lonely..
but hey gurl, im alwaes here..
ure such a brave gerl..
handling things by urself..
behind dose happie n cheerful self..
but i got 2 noe tt u are humans t0o..
wif probs..
so~as i fren, i will try 2 cheer u up..
lik wat u did for me all da tyme..hehez..
dun b sad k..coz i will b t0o..
-smile gerl- ;)

Sunday, October 03, 2004

{ freed on 1:14 AM

hola..vait a min..puase nk dkt..AND I HABEN BAYAR ALIK PUASE..keke..jahat nisa..planning 2 fast on mon, but....got menses..keke..so how~? res, feez n nisa da ayr alink..dey even puase durin pe..*salutes*..coz i cant possibly do tt..im a fat pig whu cant live wifout f0od..haha..nemind, tanya plan 2 stay back wif mie durin recess..do wat? STUDY. Wat else..gd gerls..

Kat Luar my family da bisinG2..buat aper? cat rumah kemas umah...keke..and me? slack arnd writin dis postin..lazy freak i am..wait, my mom terpekik surO lipat kain..hiash..*get ur buTt off dIs cHair*

Yest, read bio wkbk..coz nxt pp ish bio n ss..read 1 pg, sleep..anoder pg, sleep..g0sh..darn, bio sooo borin...unlik phys or chem..BIO SUX..res, u t0ld me on msn tt ur fwen got a1 fer pure bio..dun scare me larx pple..keke..khairunnisa, kau ckp kau nk score for bio ekh gerl? gd luck larx..coz kau pon ckp kau tido after evry pg..hi 5 gurl..tanya, help me in maths gurl..u so smart..yest u called me n we did maths pp 2geder..i dunoe so mani questn n wen u explain, i was lik "huh?" vut maniam?..keke..fun tokin 2 ya on da fone..but den i g0t 2 noe u haben bathe at 9+..bucuk larx..haha..later guys all ran awae..lik ehem..k shadap, go help my bro cat umah..outz

Saturday, October 02, 2004

{ freed on 1:40 AM

HehEz..ShO KiuT SeY..SmilEz ;)

Friday, October 01, 2004

{ freed on 1:20 AM

hey Ya..how ya pple d0in..shux..2dae is da start of ma prelims..haha..so b0rin..bring stackz ofnotes oso neber study much..juz da format..eng was so damn t0ugh..me n lya was lik "susah GILER SAK NI PAPER!" mayb da teachers wan us 2 die b4 o lebels..keke..den can0t go 3 mnths course..gdlar..i oso dowan..k, pper 1..felt lik writing abt beauty blabla but dunoe wats dunoe wat beh0lder means..sheesh..my v0cab v gd seh..at laz wr0te about volunteer..simplest coz i rem red cr0ss stuffs wherei hd 2 v0lunteer s0 much..keke..wrote b0ut all de borin stuffs..gd disiplne lar n crapz..den sectn 2wr0te b0ut cloth kana burnt..haha..same as tanya..hehe, we tink alike rite gurl?? waeva la..hpe examz end s0on coz im B()RED..bleakz..den pper 2 lag teruk sak..werds tt dun exist..scratchin my head abt all dosebiotech advancmnts n stuff..saw da big clock n i t0t got 10 mins more so i lek2 arh..den actuali left 5 more mins!sib0t t0l..tt tyme haben start my summary sey..rush lik hell..da passage t0k abt pigs flyin n stuff..lye n me was likguessin y dey say pigs fly of sumtin..lame i noe..heez..k la..crapped enuff..outz..