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Monday, October 31, 2005

{ freed on 11:07 PM

spot ma pic?? da chubbychubby gerl wif baby fats.

ahhhhhhhhhh got dis pic from tas(ya Allah aku tk sangke kao maseh simpan! haha)
sooo kiut n adorable, i juz hv to post dis up.
n oso im missin ma kindergarten frens n pri skool frens like krazee.
dey styll stick wif me thru de years.
like nazurah,raihana,taslimah,juni...
n darina is in ma poly,same course lak tu.
i tink if ive nt shifted hse to cck,
i guess i wldnt b DIS close to u guys.
muacks love ya'll..

{ freed on 10:35 PM

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret itHow do I cope

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chanceBut you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

*luurve dis song. n watch out fer e lyrics.
Its deep.
tooo deep it seepz thru ma heart.
so yeahhhh...

unmotivated 2 go fer dance. after wad josh saed n done. sheesh.
whu wldnt? wen ur tryin ur best n sum1 whuz nt appreciative hurl vulgarz at ya?
i noe itz fer our own gd, n our seniors had gone thru it b4
so i guess i shldnt make a big fuss bout it. burp.
keep changin de steps lik EVRYTIME??
wen we r styll strugglin wif current stepz.
owells,dust maself up,chin up n move on..
will go twning wif tekz tmr 2 look fer new top fer prfrmance
aahhhh malas ar. see if i rajin den i go
enuff bout dance,i skipped lect 2 b in diz e-plaza
haha wad 2 do wen u hv no net at home
i MISS chattttinnn on msn larrh
argh bodoh la,communicatn breakdwn wif ma old peeps.
nt keepin in cntct wif tanya n whole lota peepz out dere...

im reali sry bout u losing ur precious mobile
i hope u cn get hold of it soon
haiz,wads da use of me pourin all of ima feelins
wen u dun listen.
wads e point of me gettin sad
wen u dun share ma pain.
dats y i have a blognt 2 attract attention, but 2 pour out feelings
coz i dun tink u'll listen.
u noe,i noe,dey dunoe.
if im nt sad/depressed, i wun write all dis CRAP in ma blog. na'ah.
dis is MY blog. its up to ME to write wadeva I want.
so yahhh
not in da best of moods ryte nw.
so pardon me...

Friday, October 21, 2005

{ freed on 9:35 PM

ahhhhh
soo in da mood for rayer
ooooo
coz last yr's rayer S.U.C.K.S
yep wif da o level syndrome goin arnd
n we din even bother abt celebratin
da festive occasion
tt oni cum by once a yr
*smack* blum pape da yeye nk raye
yup ma stage arters snrs
had planned a hari raya outg for
my batch,my seniors,ma seseniors n ma seseseniors batches.
haha
imagine ur hse crowded wif 40 or 50 pple,mayb MORE
makkk pocket lobang,kaka
but im sure its gona b FUN
i owaes believe in "da more da merrier." wahaha

i cnt bbbeeeelievee i met nureen b4
wen me,liza,yani,zah,qid went out raye-ing laz 2 yrs
wif pop,dey n 7-8 of oder guy frens
da nureen i knew NOW, from dance has a younger sis
n she lives in da east
da nureen i knew THEN, olso has a sis n lives in da east
so i kept tinking mayb ahe was THE ONE
n so i checked bck ma past fotos n BAMMM
its her.
to tink i colled her KAKAK last tym. CEH
showed asz da pic n daym she laughed her teeth out.
"macam nenek sak" was wad she saed
yup dats kinda true lar, i WAS a nerdy nerd LAST TYME. haha

so in da end confronted nureen
asked her if she kenal qid blablabla
n she saed she did
so i asked,"kau knl kwn2 die?"
she saed "yani n da rest..."
ma eyes felt lik POPPING n saed,"kau tengok muke aku betol2!"
she styll cnt recognise me as dat NERDY NERD she used 2 go out wif last tym.
argh den i reveal ma true identity n she was shocked
she laughed n saed i was sooper pendiam n polite laz tyme n mentioned tt i was a NERD. yiaooootch kakaka
she saed dulu nerd skarang da le buat freeze
like, wads da connection??? haha
shld i shw u ma pic last tym?
urghh i cn cry ma eyes out juz lookin at it
unbelievably unbelievable.
i repeat, it was TWO YEARS AGO.
im soooo glad i survived da zaman kentalan n kanak2 strawberi
da one in orange was me n nureen(yellow cheongsam)
AHHHHHHHH.....!!!!

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***pssst its btwn U n ME-fullstop.***lets keep it a hushhush.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

{ freed on 12:22 AM

syg, i miss u
even if u dun
10 long months we've been together
i tink more den dt
i cn never forget da memories i had wif u
sweet n sour ones
fun n bitter ones
r olwaes deep in ma heart

remembered da tym we met
remembered da tym we knew of each oder's existance
"its a small world" was in da frenster msg u sent me
coz ur cuz was ma pri sch bud
rem da tyms we chatted
on msn
i knew dat u were da one
da frenli guy nxt door type dt i waz lookin for
i remembered da tym i spoke 2 u on da phone 4 da 1st tym
daym i was reeaaal nervous
ur trademark,"haiyo"
mine,"sudahla"
haha duno if u rem,
but i do.

rem da 1st tym we met, at lib at CP
u were wearin dis red jacket
me, black top wif reali thick makeup
it was raining real heavy
we smiled at each oder
n u offered 2 hold da brawlie
while we cross da road
had dis feelin inside me
kept appearin in ma mind
but 1 tings 4 sure
i knew u were mine.

since day 1
my love 4 u grew
u took care of me real good
like nobodi would
tym pass by
felt real close
felt real love
i nvr felt before.

remembered da tym u hold ma hand
n kisses u gave me
ur smell make ma heart beat faster
however weird dt may sound
i felt so loved
so touched
feelin ive nvr felt before.

u stood by me oll dis while
n i appreciated dt
bein patient ol da wae
givin me encouragements n support
stood by me wen i was dwn.

i love u syg
i reali do
but i wan 2 noe
if u felt da same wae too
m i a bore
dt drive u awae
or m i sumone uninterestin
which cause u to stray.

i reali wish we cld spend more tym syg
freeze da tym,me n u
noone else
besides us
if ur readin dis
i juz wan 2 tell u
dt im willin 2 do evrytin 2 make u smile
even if it means
for u leavin me
for sum1 else
coz u deserve better
WAY better
thoa it pains ma heart 2 even imagine
ma life wifout u
so long as u're hapi...

Sunday, October 16, 2005

{ freed on 10:32 PM

daym im BORED.
in e-plaza nw coz of 2 hrz of break.
yup,back 2 skool 2dae afta long holidae.
urgh i miss ms penny.
different teacher like weird lidat
learned tube suction or wadeva shit.
hahax
da mannequin juz nw hensem sae
better den da laz tym
wif proper hair,tongue n blue eyes.
haha angmoh
tk bajet sangat
bought tons of bookz 2dae
looked lik budak baek lidat carryin bks
hmm,frens
nana looked prettier wif permed hair n coloured lenses
asz looked cuter wif highlighted hair
me?
ntahla..same i guess. heez
maureen looked tanned sak
n deres a new guy in klass
oooo
but ONE ting
we oll behave differentli
WAE more matured i mean,not so giler2 lik las tym
payin more attentn in lectures sorta stuffz

ooo miss dance
finalli able 2 da babyfreeze
n wen i showed it 2 qid,she was shocked. yeah
watched a perfrmance at ite simei
sak jauh sae,haha
FUNFUNFUN
isaac's gelek can kill pple.
MAUT. hax
shocked 2 find shafiq n ma neighbr in 1 of de crewz.
breakdancers was HOT. yeah

bought new sneakerz wif ma sis at far eaz.
she la, gila wan 2 wear black pantyhose wif short checkered skirts.
weird. haha
bought a stripey black n pink handsocks dt i cn wear 4 ma performance.
yay.

nice baju rayerrr
white kebaye. mcm pengantin sae.
haha cn imagine me kahwin wif dt one.
weewit.

mama bising wen she saw me wearin short skirts. ahhhhh
but nenek was silent. love u nek.
cute luqman. besar confem hansem. muahah.

lookin forward 2 meetin him.
wen we r apart 4 lik foreverrrrr
alah biler nk jumpe pon tk tau.
ntah la,mcm nk give him a biggg hug lidat.
da bear's gettin oll dusty.
biler nk pass kt die pon tk tau.
heh.

k lesson startin...
BYEz

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

{ freed on 1:05 AM

GUYS LIKE THAT YOU"RE SENSITIVE

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way
You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to
Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets
No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

YOU'RE A NATURAL BEAUTY
You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about...
One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup
That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though
You have style, but for you, style is effortless

Jealousy is not a sign of true love. One of the greatest mistakes young people can make is to believe that the more violent the jealousy, the stronger the love. Some jealousy is normal between two people who care deeply about each other. But jealousy is really possessiveness, not love. Psychoanalyst Dr. Theodor Reik says that people who suffer acutely from jealousy often have an underlying sense of insecurity which leads to an overwhelming need to be loved. As a result, they can be extremely jealous even though they may not be in love at all.

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daNce is Ma passIon

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

{ freed on 1:56 AM

fuh bck afta lik FOREVA! haha. examz,done. attachments,done. holidaes,in e procez..

examz was fairlie OK la. waz late quite a few tymz fer ma paper n i hd 2 rushed thru,hehe. got bck ma results n it was wad i xpected it 2 b,no more,no less. thank god! lowest grade,C. highest, A. no failurez!!gota werk more on dat clinical skillz. insyaAllah hopin 2 get higher gradez in future. no more slackin nisa. gota kick ma butt up n drill on books. wana b a professional staff nurse n contribute 2 society. yup!

urgh daym i miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssss SCHOOL. been havin attachmnts n holidaes,i miss ma peepz. hangin out wif lov 3-0 n jokin arnd wif aud,seishen,suyi,ah piao.....yada2. miss macs. miss ms penny. miss e fountain. miss da dummy. miss rambut rosak. haha!

NR0511 RAWKZ!!!

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had attachmntz at alexandra hospital few wks back. made lotsa frenz,esp wif e patients!! received advises frm e nurses dere,oder students n even frm e patients relativez. love e bed 5 auntie whu olwaez asked fer me 2 feed her. haha. 86 yrs old tau! n she had lotsa "fans" frm ite nurses whu lurve da wae she tok n smiles. n den dere waz dis auntie whu OLWAEZ wana go toilet. n I have 2 wheel her by commode. haha nvm,sabar jek. diz makck whu loz her money prob coz of me. feel so sad fer her. 1 werd 2 describe werk in hospital?? HECTIC. yup.but i lurve. it. i hate 2 b free n lost. haha.

had attachmnt at cck polyclinic afta dat. man, LYFE IZ SO DAYM B>O>R>I>N>G dere. tym paz soooo slooooowli. onli get 2 observe dem doin deir job. i nearli fainted seein diz patient had her stichez removed on her NIPPLE. yeah datz ryte. i could sense da pain dt she's havin n excused maself OUT of dt room. haha. namer jek nurse. im nvr gona specialize in operatin theatre. bende2 yg geli2 kene ngk. yikez. fun watchin babies scream aftar deir injectionz. haha.

dance performance cumin up on 23 NOV. song HOLLABACK by gwen stefanie. kinda rough la e stepz,muz b forceful n full of angst. haha. JOSH is owaez bz n since itz his choreo, he's nt able 2 teach uz new step evritim. but hd fun practisin wif ma dance peepz. da TEKZ. haha. muz b as good as FB. woohoo.