{ Set them free.

Friday, September 29, 2006

{ freed on 9:00 AM

never say i luv u
if u reali dun care
nvr tok abt feelings
if they arent reali dere.
nvr hold my hand
if ur gg to break ma heart.
nvr sae ur going to
if u dun plan to start.
nvr look into ma eye
if all u do is lie.
nvr sae hello
if u mean gdbye.
if u reali mean 4ever
dun say will try
nvr sae 4ever

cuz 4ever makes me cry

i'ved loved u too much
to let go.....
u may tink im stupid
but its true.

fcuk i hate myself for lovin you.

i wana get out of ward 2 can??
urghhhhh.
=p

saling kau lihat
bukan segala-gala
bibir tersenyum
menutup jiwa dan luka
saling kau lihat
hanya antara lapis
mataku sinar
bergenang tangis

Monday, September 25, 2006

{ freed on 4:59 AM

im sad.
well, not that sad sad
but still quite sad.
my patient tt i usta take care of
is nw gone.
well, pple come n go i noe.
sum may take it as no big deal
lyk as if its ur close relations tt pass awae.
but to me,
evry life counts.
how much impact a person has on u,
u still knew tt person,
and ever b introduced into his/her life.
so its sad to noe tt
their gone...

plus the fact that
it is HE who commented i looked better
wif braces.
it is HE who calls out my name
wenever i walk pass him,
regardless i noticed him or not.
it is HE who asked me to accompany him,
to wheel him off for his operation.
(thoa i brush hym off saying i was busy.)
it is only HIM who wished me gd morning
wen i started work all lifeless and tired.

hope all is well for his family members
n close relations.

not onli am i quite sad,
im also feeling a sense of disgust.
accompanied a fren to make a police report.
cuz she encountered several incidences
which was beyond her tolerance level.
emotionally.
not once or twice,
more than that.
we as nurses are exposed to
physical contact with patients.
be it transferring, lifting, stabilising, inspecting,
we have to TOUCH them.
n that is where the bond will be formed.
it is utterly disgusting
wen the fact that a patient
take that near contact
as n advantage.
stroking, smacking, grabbing, brushing his filthy hands
on sensitive areas of our body.
aniwhere u can imagine.
some 'victims' may keep it unknown,
while others take it as no big deal.
for me, on the other hand,
i wun be crying in a lil corner
being upset and blaming it on myself.
fat-hope.
I AM FIRM.
to be honest,
i encountered it too.
my bum was brushed by a hand
suspected to be him.
that is the reason y,
i decided to make the matter known to others
specifically to the police.
but wad happened to me was noting
compared to ma fren
who was quite traumatised.
Few policemen were sent to see the patient
to investigate the matter.
i was glad it was handled over to the authorities.
hah!
PEGI MAMPOS.
AKU HARAP SI JANTAN MIANG TU
kene handcuffed, ARRESTED,
spend wadever of his life left in JAIL.
sexually deprived sia.
ahahahahahah.
keep yer hands to yerself.

we have self-respect too mind you.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

{ freed on 9:20 AM

hey all.
my gud fren, dearest eddie is promoting
his dino mini hamper bisnes.
go to http://www.dinominihamper.blogspot.com/
i tink its quite kewl.
so check it out fellas.
see eddie, im doin u a favour...
=p

anihooss...
im dead tired.
jus came back from a shopping spree wif shikin.
yee ha! sure had fun.
thoa im havin slight cough n runny nose,
wun reject aniones invitation to shop.
hehs!
as usual, im late.
star karatz...
went to centrepoint to look for her bike models.
yamaha, honda sme kte carik.
all nyce, but quite ex..
so we search sumore for her late bro's bike..
took quite sumtime but its ok wit me.
anitin fer a fwen
hehs!
den we went to the flea market near cine.
was better den the last few sellings we went to.
more shoes thoa, but the clothes are quite nyce.
bought a Mango top. hehs.
den walk2 all the way to dhoby ghaut stn to go bugis.
went to look fer her sling bag,
wich was kindof hard to find.
like wad pple sae,
the more we look for sumthin, the harder it is to find.
true? yeaps.
finalllly she found diz urm... puma bag?
kinda nyce. hehs
den i bought dis black to wif polka dots while
she bought flowery chiffon-lyk top.
nyce!
=)
well, dats wad i bought.
kinda broke anw. tryin to budget abit lor...
looking for jacket n shoes,
bought smthin else.
ah tu larrr nisa.
cehs!
shikin cute sey,
evritim i caught ma eyes on smthin,she wld go,
"eppppppp. jgn tgk. yg sudah tu sudah..."
HAHAHA.
remind me of my MOTHER.
hehe.
thx beb 4 ensurin tt i dun splurge.
anihoos,
love ur company man!~
nxt tym buka smer2 k?
n oso wif my oder fwens too...
mish u guys alot sia..
=)

i tink i saw rudy at bugis.
isit hym, isit not?
if its hym, i hv one werd.
HOTTIE.
=p
ahahahaha.

to all muslims out dere,
SELAMAT BERPUASA.

adiew.

Friday, September 22, 2006

{ freed on 3:11 AM

i tink i got a crush on ma staff nurse.
MALE of course. haha!
got the aura ard him.
thmps my heart n made me blush big tym.
hahahaha.
moz of da tym we're in diff shift
so din actuali get to c hym much.
sumore he's a nurse.
i respect guys who join diz profession SERIOUSLY.
its lyk, dey stand their ground
n ignore oders who tink tt guys are pussys if dey
are nurses.
stereotypes.
anwwwww,
he looks cute frm far.
near he's okay///.
serious eyes yet cute.
not dat boyish-looking but cute.
dunoe arh, juz cute.
quiet and matured but cute.
aiayahhh cute larr!
hahaha.
i hv such a
fetish for cute guys wif the currls.
yeah baby.
=)
ohhhh ya ya,
n dose wif dimples.
killer!
abit of adam brody's cuteness + dimples
+ justin timberlake's eyes n groove
+ smile lyk noreis + dress style lyk raizan
equals to = MY DREAM BOI.
okayyy lil bit tooo0000 far.
haha.
i should sleep now n dream sumore.
=p.

urghhh.
i H.A.T.E having menses.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

{ freed on 3:07 AM

My Heart Irwansyah feat Acha Septriasa

Disini kau dan aku terbiasa bersama
menjalani kasih sayang
bahagia kudenganmu

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang
if u love somebody could we be this strong
i will fight to win our love will conquer all
wouldn’t reach my love even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

Please God,
let me go through this hurdle with faith
wif confidence and strength to move on..

y do i think of him wen i wanted so much not to?
y do i search for him wen i know he is never dere?
y do i wait for his msges wen i told him nt to contact me?
y do i hate seeing loving couples out dere?
y do i LEAVE him wen i wana BE wif him?
y do i love him wen i hate him so much?
y do i break his heart wen im equally broken?
y am i smiling to others but alone, im crying?
y do e feelings resurfaced wen it has drowned long ago?
y must i miss him wen im hurt-by him?
-------y am i living in a life full of denials?-------

y am i living a lie?

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

{ freed on 5:51 PM

hmmm tym to recap.
last sat din make it fer the chalet.
was running a fever n anw knew lil info abt
the place.
i blieve onli few dancers can make it.
i din go, nad wun go, dee wun go,
asz confirm not going.
hahaha.
alah halalkan jek the 5bux.
i bet they ate the food
to their hearts content.
hah!

on sun, hanged out wif the AH peeps.
they were so sweet, asked me out
for a mini bdae celeb.
paid for my movie tix n olso food.
eh maceh eh krg, love ya!
watched lil man,
it was funnie overall.
the part where the guy was supposedli rough,
ended up crying emotionalli runnin aftr
his 'daddy'.
hahaha.
dere were some scenes wich are ehem sia.
dun tink it shld b NC16. shld be M18 show.
well, i guess sporeans r mre open yarx.
=)
laughed to ma hearts content.
me n shiqah was chuckling on hw
we stepped onto the cute caucasion guys' shoes
who sat bside me.
as in, wen we entered the cinema
all dark to get to our seats.
hahaha.
will njoy anitin wen im wif the right company.
=)

nxt, shopping!!!
we went to topshop, forever 21, zara, Mango,
u name it.
all de 'only the-loaded-can-afford shops.
it was gorgeous,
but, ended up leaving wif us saying,
"mahal sak, tkde duit arh."
hahaha.
shikin was the one spending the most.
she bought tops n cardi n oll.
well i guezz she found lotsa stuff she liked.
but shiqah, haiyo, beli suntan lotion jek?
tu pun untuk her adek. hahaha.
i bought a sweet top wif ribbons
n a basic brown tee.
evrione nd to hav a basic tee on "slack daes' ryte.
hmmm anw,
i was eyeing on diz brwn jacket at Zara wich is so comfy.
n oso Topshop's low neck wif cuffs like dee's.
e jacket looks nyce on me wen i tried it,
but....kecing!kecing!
planned to wear it wif ma nursing unifrm but its tight
at the arm area.
so it will look bulging WIF the uniform.
so, keep on lookin fer the purrrfect jacket.
=)

by den it was raining heavily,
we managed to run in the rain w/o brawlies.
poor shiqah hd to slower her pace
as she was wearing SLIPPERS.
hahah. to TOWN?
hehs.
head dwn to Mcafe to chill out.
took ALOT of pics like dere's nobody watchin.
see, i told ya we r cam-whores.
haha.
chatted abt hw me, shikin n shu are related.
NJOYED MASELF. Thnx for hanging out guys.
we shld hangout more. =)
thnx for chasing ma blues away.

some pple just wont stop u from laughing.

wats up wif ma patients comin up to me
n askin me to wear braces????
hmmprhh!

Saturday, September 16, 2006

{ freed on 9:40 AM

whoa.
3 weeks went dat fast huh.
pejam kelip pejam kelip
dahhhhh 3 minggu.
AH ward 11 staffs RAWK!!!
special tribute to
Nursing officer Ranjit and Pauline,
Snr staff nurse normadah, Norbani, Wong s.l,
Staff nurse jennifyer, maricris, Destri, Huimian, Erica
HCA Buena, AN Neethu, Azizah, Arni, Hamila
PRCP yr 3 kak Suriati..etc
lovable yr 2 fwens Shikin, Shiqah, Saras, Jin Lan
blur but fun yr 1 batch Salleha, Salwa, Eunice etc.
dey make my attchment experience worthwhile.
taught me stuffs wich im nt sure off.
gave me hands on prac wich i needed.
correcting ma mistakes.
adding kecoh-ness to the ward.
LURVE DEM!!!! period. hahaha.

off to ward 2, nxt week.
meet new pple, environment, patients.
back to nursing the MALE species.
OMG.
haha!
luckily yg tua2 nyer
nt dose young menggatal kind. hahah
aper jek nisa
org da saket2 pun nk cerewet.
yeap. gona missh ward 11.
took sum pics 4 memories.
WOI shikin! send aku gmbr tu sme!
maceh.....
shayang kau. =)

got bck ma results.....
it was 0kayyyy.
nt dat gd larx.
3 Bs, 2C+ , 2Ds.
if im nt wrng arh.
no supp. yayay.
gpa 2.26 smthin smthin.
actuali has improved frm last sem results.
tried 2 push maself harder to beat sum1's gpa
wich was sky high.
haha.

eyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
r dey havin chalet or wad?
saed at downtown east room 19 smthn smthn.
da mcm hotel plak eh.
haha.
urgh.
information breakdwn.
the THING is tmr, yet no news.
paid 5 bux oweady lei. wth.
nk pegi tknk ni?
bdk2 dance cam gong gong gtu.
*smack*.
tunggu je la eh nad.
kau pegi aku pegi.
aku pegi dee pegi.
ahh bagos tu.
haha!

yahooo!
shopping wif king + kong on sun cum movie.
Little man or devil wears prada? hmmmm.
mis shopping. so veri-the-nyce-wae-of-exercising.
shopping not = to spending.
shopping means oogling at bags shoes clothes earrings guys.
u noe wad i mean.
hehs.
n more cam-whoring shyt biatches like us like to do.
hahahahahah.

njoy de gud lyfe u had wif fwens.
coz wif dem u indulge in fun.

wen was the last tym u had a hearty laugh?

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

{ freed on 6:06 AM

i wonder why ive been attracted to a JERK.
~DUH.
wad a waste of tym.
got 100000000000000000000000000 guys out dere.
cuter.
nicer.
sweeter.
eh u....
gi lek sua.

oh ya.
happie 18th bdae to me!!!

Monday, September 11, 2006

{ freed on 7:54 AM

so embarrassing.
cehs! haha.
had a per4mance yest
at wheelock near thati embassy.
for diz red cross charity event or smthn.
felt proud cuz i was once
a RC cadet in sec sch daes..
hahahahaha.
as planned, used the dance item
with sexyback,buttons and YS locking choreo.
da lammerrrr gler seh tk naek stage.
den wen perform cam gabra gtu.
nervous seh serious.
tak mentally prepared.
steps pun mcm quite berterabur...
cuz jus learned buttons steps the dae BEFORE.
as in seriously not main2. hahaha.
appear quite unconfident.
nad's bf saed ma "buttons" part kaku lidat.
not like hotline i gues.
plak tu mei xian tripped me during the end pose.
MAK MALU!!!!
can see clearli at de video. haha.
luckili she scooped me up lik a prince charming lidat.
after de whole thang,
heard this 2 guys talkin bout who's e girl
who tripped and fell.
obviousli it was me. DUH!
i came up to them,
shouted ,"k lah, aku yg jatoh k! takya pikir2..."
and i laughed out loud.
dey den turned n saed tak baik ketawa n oll dt.
malu to e max...
heheh.

went to NUS BLAST concert
as dey saed it was pure hiphop.
thoa i was tired,
was persuaded by dance seniors especially dee.
hahahahaha.
like the name,
we had a BLAST.
dere was a live deejay too.
n he's cute. nyehehe.
de atmosphere was like in a club,
not lyk usual performance.
yg herannyer
ader byk jgk org2 tua gi tgk...
hahahaha.
8/10 of the performance are lyk RA rated lidat.
de gerls was uneasy, de guys ehhemmm..
dey saed it was ok. like OK??? hahaha
but dere were gd techniques,
i love de sweet love dance
with lampost n oll in de background.
so sweet kan.....
valerie is a BABE.
peter is a HUNK.
on stage i mean.
haha.
wow. cooolness.

psst.
met rizal from unity.
gota say he lost alot of weight!!!
from his oversize body in sec sch
where pple owaes tease hym.
now b surprised pple.
hehx.
glad he styl recognise me
despite wearin my nursing uniform.
hehx.

pllllleasssssseee year 1s.
dun be soooo blur can?
i noe 2daes ur 1st dae,
try to blend in.
haha.
like wad hamila saes,
"slenger bacen seh drg."
serve diet to NBM patients.
ahhhhh.
yg mati kte, de yr 2s,
for not guiding them.
so pls i beg u.
=)
outz.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

{ freed on 2:25 AM

bertahun sudah ku menunggu dirimu
akhirnya kau menjadi millikku
sukarnya untukku melupakanmu
kerna kau ku cintai selalu

tapi sayang
kehadiran kekasih lamamu
datang kembali mengenang cinta dahulu

mengapa ini semua harus berlaku
apakah ini semua kerna diriku
sedangkan aku cuma watak dalam percintaan
tak sanggup aku melepaskanmu
kau ibarat terperangkap di tengah lautan
tak tau mana arah untuk kau menuju

andai kau pinta untuk melepaskanmu
terpaksa aku turutkan
mungkinkah ini suatu pengajaran
di dalam percintaan

ive suffered once.
PLEASE DONT let me suffer again.
history is god damn repeating itself.
y must u keep tings from me?
y muz it be a secret?
y muz our rlp be a lie?
im hurting inside..
my heart is bleeding.
my face is calm but
im crying.
tears flowing.
im dying.
i just wana hurt myself.
do u noe dat?
have u ever been in ma place?
have u EVER spared a taught of wad i mite b feelin??
u kept saying tt u dun choose to be dis wae.
LIKE I WANT IT??
cant u do aniting about it?
y leave it to fate?
u told me to gv u some tym for ur probs.
"wadever it is".
i was patient enough to tolerate.
despite my inpatience and hot-temperedness
i tolerated.
i waited.
but wad does all dis waiting lead to?
more n more waiting.
"it will take some time,' u say.
finally i boils down to
1. No msg replies.
2. No answering of phone calls n none from him either.
3. No meetings.
FOR 2 WHOLE DAYS.
n wen i finalli received ur msg,
with my mood lighten up,
u said u needed more tym. AGAIN.
i just cried there n then.
while walking to school.
u ask, wether we shld continue dis relationship,
coz both are suffering.
u said its not ur fault
n dat made me cry harder.
coz i love u.
i love u too much to let go.
dont u feel the same wae?
the thought of bearing it all for so long
just to receive a heart-wrenching news
is just to much to handle.
i cannot take it.
im not strong enough.
ya Allah, pls help me overcome dis obstacle
in wadever means.
maybe dis alwaes happens
to pple who are too devoted and loyal
to the one they love.