was on my way home after PM shift and dad fetched me home as usual. as i got down from dad's lorry, i accidentally tripped and fell! my whole body weight was on my left ankle and i felt it got twisted. struggling to get up, i saw mum rushed back to grab hold of me. dad got down the lorry and immediately carried me to a sitting place under our block.

both legs felt like jelly. i tried my very best to act and walk like normal....but i cant. it was cold and windy, sending shivers down my spine. in my nursing uniform, i cried as dad tried to massage my ankle. there were passers-by and i was tearing. how embarassing.....

my parents rushed me to grandma hse where i am in for more torture. my atuk siap ngan sireh and kunyit massaged my swollen ankle. pity the neighbours who had to hear me scream in the middle of the night... hurhur. afterwhich i felt slightly better ah.

had to take MC today bohpian ahhh. not sure how many days MC. i can barely walk. to think that i had sprained the same left ankle the THIRD time already. first two times was before my dance performances... hmmm... will visit the doctor later today to get my MC. wahhh STUPID NURSING SHOE LA. they should get it changed!!! i heard other nurses also got sprained ankles using that shoe!!

and to think that i had a DREAM of falling down from my dad's lorry, with my nursing uniform and sprained my ankle few weeks ago!!! it all happened just like in my dream siakkk! this year CNY so sway meh??

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to my darling tiica...

funny how life is not how we planned it out to be...

nothing is certain but death and taxes...

feelings can never be forced and it happens naturally...

we can only expect the unexpected in life...

but not all unplanned situations are undesirable...

it can also lead to fairytale endings...=)

hope u have a blissful rlp with raihan yeah...?

and upon having to know that fateful news...

i know how it feels like being in your position...

straining all ties and diminishing all forms of trusts...

widening all boundaries and giving up hope...

the most affected ones are your parents...

how unacceptale the news can turn out for them...

be their tower of strength and provide endless support...

as you know, blood is thicker than water...

whats past cant be undone...

he has to face his own music, accept all consequences...

come hell or high water, he can somehow work it out...

the most important thing is..

people can change and hopefully he can find the right path in life...

; im always here to give my two cents worth for you kay, babe?

=)

i was irritable, aggitated and in a foul mood.

usually it would be very surprising to see me mad. only the unimaginable can make me mad. at most i would shout from one end to the other one minute and be laughing the next. but TODAY, i was cursing and swearing like nobody's business. even towards the innocent.

firstly, i dun like to see any mess around my space or work area. if i happen to see bits and scraps of unwanted pieces of junk, i would not hesitate to discard them away. its just an EYESORE. and today, there were TONNES of them in my line of vision.

secondly, i dun like it when people leave tasks unfinished. they leave traces of incomplete work everywhere; only for me to find out abit too late. and all the SHIT they left is all over my face. yes, im the victim who is in deep shit covering YOUR own ass.

thirdly, yes; i noe everyone is busy. but why are you always the busiest when all you cared about is your casesheets? you bossed your juniors around and turn a deaf ear to call bells from patients in need. now tell me, where is your personal touch of nursing care? case files are not your patients!

fourthly, when someone says that they had the job done, they MEANT it. dont try to say you did this and that, only for others to discover it was just empty words.

my patience was being tested. my middle finger was being raised. even my other colleagues labelled me; as FIERCE. huhhh. that word was never used to describe me. skarang tanduk aku dah naik!

i despise doing things in a rushed manner, because at the end of the day its not the quantity of work done. its the quality of the effort that was put in. remember, we work as a team. so if one does a mistake, it will affect the others. SO YOU BETTER BUCK UP AND START DOING SOME QUALITY WORK WILL YA?

*P.S: sorry to my other colleagues for having to tolerate my bad day. din mean to shout at you guys! love u all lahh~! hahaha...

okay gdnite.

it was cold and chilly.

you sent me to my door and kissed my forehead.

you bid me goodbye and hugged me tight.

i looked down, unable to engage in any form of eye-contact.

my heart felt heavy, and i whispered a soft goodbye.

will i ever see u again?

as soon as the door was shut closed, my mind was lead to the past.

the same scene happens, where someone whom i loved sent me home and bid me goodye;

and my heart felt heavy, wishing that someone will stay and not leave.

but that someone finally left.. leaving me all alone and in pieces.

reminiscing back, tears welled up in my eyes.

why do i get emotional all of a sudden?

why must i tink of the past which will only bring back tears?

sending me home, that kiss on the forehead, that goodbye..

it was all the same...

but one thing for sure....i wish the past will not repeat itself.

Md Akmal Bin Masodi...

i hope the goodbyes u gave is not meant to be forever.

I Love You.

watched bedtime stories with dear... its actually a reasonably nice movie than i expected it to be. hehe.... been a looong time since i watched movies lar! :) BEST.

AND BEEF PROSPERITY BURGER IS BACKKKK!!! WOOOHOOO. AND ITS MEGA. HOT I LIKE.~ im sure gona comeback for more.....!

droolsssssss.

we're like chasing the 'spirits' away for our patient...

nite shift on malam jumaat lagi..... -_-

Do i really have to lock every single property of MINE and also others to make sure that they dont go MISSING? only to find out its somewhere else?

and to tink that its not the first time!