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Friday, December 23, 2005

{ freed on 9:43 PM

kenangilah satu pertemuan
itu kerana
di situlah terciptanya
satu keindahan
dan renungilah
satu perpisahan itu
kerana disitulah
terbitnya satu kerinduan
sayang,antara engkau dan aku
tiada lagi ungkapan satu
tiada lagi engkau dlm diriku
dan tiada lagi
aku dlm dirimu

every nite i stared
at a blank and empty space
i feel lost n unwanted
like an abandoned,ragged doll
dat had been cast aside
making wae for a new item
for u to njoy..

sumtyms i feel
is it worth waitin for u
wen u dun seem to care
wen u're not even dere

goodbye..
thnx for makin ma 1st love a memorable one
guess im continuing diz lifelong tradition of
a first love dt can nvr last.
so long.

nisa.hazwan.04.12.04-18.11.05

Thursday, December 15, 2005

{ freed on 8:28 PM

finali de hols is heeeerrreee!!!
i mean intra-semestral break lar. thoa its onli 2 wks but den...njoy beb!
hahax.
wana slack 2 de maxxximum coz afta de break,cumz our attachmt. burp.
n str8 afta de attachmnt cums our EXAMZ. mak cmne nk bljr sak. conferm alek hosp truz lepak. haha.
i'll b tooo tired to do anetin afta oll doze walkin about in hosp. n oll de layan-ing of patients karenah. haha..
but nt oll of dem larr, sum patients cn be a gd buddy n cheer up ma dae. it oll dependz....
so nw im jus gona hv fun,watch movies(check kocek 1st),
concentrate on dance(danceworks competitn cumin up),study abit(tgk mood),go out wif frens,wake up late evridae..bla3. hahaha

my 1037 tests are OVER.
theory part im nt so confident,coz i had perfrmance on dt dae n THAT mite affect ma results.
we'll seee.
newayz its juz 30% but im hopin 4 de bez. insya'Allah..
the 1037 practical was lik hell.
1st assessment i failed,n dt made me REAL sad. i cried sia at macs..oni asz saw it. hehe!
coz i somehw cnt accept failurez la. so yar.
passed oropharyngeal suctioning(minor) but failed wound dressing(major).
overall: FAILED.
mane ke tdk, abit oni,contaminated. TERpegang tissue sikit,contaminated. TER garok kepale,contaminated.
haiyooooo...hahaha
so i had my re-test de nxt wk n i was cursed lik shyt by de lecturer. shoots.
mulut dier mmg tk censored sae. geram aku. mcm nk angkt kaki truz jln.
this is wad she saed:
"y are u so dumb? dunoe hw to grip de forceps properly isit? where's ur brain? so stupid ar?"
omg i felt lik urrrrghhh nvm. clenching ma hands into fists.
if i reason wif her i scared i straight fail. den i hv 2 repeat whole semezter. so TAHAN jek.
dere's mani more hurtful tings she saed 2 me but i shall nt write it dwn.
nvm biaselar she's already old. i excuse her laser-ness.
in da end...I PASSED!! woohoo.
mayb we may get her as our clinical lecturer. mati mati mati mati aku.

got back ma 1034 prac results n i passed wif a B.
phew thnk goodnesss.
wad more cn i ask for but gd grades??
hehehehe..

watched movie wif nana,firdaus(her bro),me n ma sis(ain) at lido.
wanted 2 watch kingkong lar bt watched aeon flux instead.
erm, de movie abit RA la. some smooching scenes. ok for me but not 4 ma sis. haha!
abit confusin here n dere but we njoyed it.
shant tell u dtailz, go watch urselfs! heheh..
thanxs nana! we had fun ryte...
tho ur bro n ma sis malu2 kucing jek. haha.
ur adk sibok ngn his walkman(telinge tersumbat.haha),
ma adk sibok ngn her hp(msg whu oso i dunoe)
oni me n u end up crapping. wakrakra.
loveble trio olwaes ayte!! heex.
too bad asz wasnt dere.

me n nana at ma hse durin raya.
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toodles.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

{ freed on 11:10 PM

FINALI hv e chance 2 b in front of de comp.
gt loaddzzz of stuffs to jot dwn. haha.

8th dec 2005('eve' of alumni nyte)
we were called dwn 2 blk e 2 practice our dance steps fer de alumni nyte.
turns out tt we had to settle all de decorations stuffs n oll dat sia.
me n sum oders had to cover up all de windows wif dis yellow cloth.
kinda fun la but de TAPE was de problem. it wasnt sticky enuff.
too lazy to bother so we kept climbing up to fix de windows n set up de photo gallery.
THAT took alot of our preciouz tym wich ma dance peeps wasnt satisfied about.
that tym cld be used to prac our choreo wich was like shit. haha.
complained to seniors bt dey saed its STAGE ARTERS duty to do it,doesnt mean dancers dun hv to do it.
well, fine lar..i dun mind but ma peeps were lik soooo dull sia. haha.

9th dec 2005 (alumni nyte)
we were xcused whole dae from lessons but i had a bioprac on tt dae.
so my mind wasnt concentratin on dance but on de 'heart n respiratory systems' bla2..
entered de room n BAM! oll de window curtains tt we hanged up yesterdae fell dwn. shucks!
oso de gallery. photos ruined. it was a horror ok.
turns out de tape was at fault. so we used 3 layers to tape it,1 layer:duck tape.2nd layer:newspaper.3rd layer:double sided tape.
n it sticked well THANK GOD. muahah.
luckili josh excused us n we practised de steps like mad. formations n oll.
den came our makeupin tym. sara put on sooo much blusher on me,i screamed wen i saw de mirror. haha.
de backstage pple was sooo kecoh we kpt shoo-ing each oder to keep quiet. hehe.
wad 2 do..excited mah!
ma hair was at 1st done by jeremy. den it was touched up by raizan. IMAGINE de tons of hairspray,wax n wadeva shit dey dumped on ma hair. nontheless, i looked WOW! haha.
pic taken BEFORE performance. dancers lookin lik mad pple. kuakua.
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dance pple DANCE!! i was nt on stage YET. haha.
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JUNIOR drama. i luurrvee dis scene. if u realli looove me...
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seniors dance. GO SENIORS!!!
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seniors drama. OMG i lurrve dis scene where de gerl was killed. cam nk nangis dok!
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den was de handinfg over ceremony of snrs to juniors. de commitee had alot of malays sak! hehe.
before leavin,of course la we had to clear up oll de mess. BUT, it was wae better den puttin tings up coz we jus had to rip evritin off frm de walls n windows. hhaah.
den we cuddle n took more pics of ourselves n alumni...

went crazy on de train wif shida,farhana,arifah,raizan,nizam ard. nizam showed us many tricks sia. 1 of dem was rubbin 1 of ur arm n be AMAZED at it becumin shorter. lerz. haha.
tadaaaa!!!! kwang3 . usin a paper to test it out.
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~~~home SWEEt home~~~
reached hm about 12+am. lucky de last bus is at 1250 if im nt wrong. hah!

Monday, December 05, 2005

{ freed on 11:22 PM

1.post 5 weird/random things about urself.

2.at the end of the quiz,list the name of the 5 people who u want next to do this and leave a comment "you are comment" in their blog.

So here goes...:

5 weird things about me..

hahahah..tas made me do dis..but i kinda enjoyed it la. smthgs wich pple nvr get 2 noe. hush hush yarz. bt i guess sum pple wld hv noticed it anewaes. so yar.

1. I love to look at pple. juz name it where n when. i observe deir walk,talk,clothes,hair,shoez....yup up to deir details. im quite intricate in nature la,so to speak. haha. of course dat person muz catch ma attention 1st lar. tts y i can NEVER concentrate if im studyin in public. coz my eyes will tend to stray awae from de book n onto pple. haha.

2. I guess one ting dt pple noe well bout me is tt im OLWAES late. kuakua. ntah eh asal. b it 5 mins,20,30...even hours. i have 3 alarms at hm-my mum yelling,my sis screamin n ma hp. but styll i prop dwn to my bed again after gettin up. haha lazy freak eh. uat bende terhege2. ironicalli i hate to wait 4 pple. muz change ar. MUST. but luckili i dress fast. if not,nasib lar korang tunggu aku lame2. haha.

3. ish malu ar nk bilang..i can cry watchin a sad movie. dere was once i teared while watchin a young boy in coma or sumtin. n a poor handicapped person sufferin. i cn jus feel deir pain lidat. leh rase sedey smacam sae. but wadeva it is i'll make sure dere's noone bside me lar. kalo ader,tahan ajer. n oso i nearli cried wen my patient passed awae ok. emo gerl here. huahuahua.

4. im weird in a wae coz i will avoid n deny my feelings to evrione if i like a person. noone wld have even GUESSED dt i have a crush on sum1 coz i dun show it out. if i avoid sum1 tt means i like him,not hate him. haha. alah jual mahal la k. easy speakin. haha.i will be so tensed up n blushin all over.BUT, i can act perfectli normal wif oder pple.

5. wen im stressed, ill lock maself up in my room n do wad? haha..blast a music n dance. dun care wad song n wad steps. ill jus shake all over lik nobody's bisnez. gives me da thrill. but i dun go clubbing ok. haha. wen im sad,ill cover up ma whole body n cry ma heart out. wen im hapie,ill go ard smiling n make oder's hapi,like do housework. hahaha. wen im angry,ill resort to violence. ill slam de door,show attitude face n oll dat. i once punched a wall n kicked de bed out of anger. but hey,dt rareli happens so dun make me angry k. if i m,console me. i'll b touched. khekhe.

so..dts wad i wana share bout me. tk sangke eh? hehe. yup NOW u noe..

Niwae, the next 5 peeps that i wanna pass on is.. farhana(nana),nadhirah,raihana,restria,asz.

sorie 4 de leceh-ness but..it'll be fun. NJOY!! caoz.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

{ freed on 7:41 PM

Saying I love you
Is not the words
I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say but if you only knew

How easy it would be
To show me how you feel
More than words
Is all you have to do
To make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me
Cos I'd already know

well well well...
felt lik bloggin afta completed ma ica project.
sch ends at 10am todae, urgh felt reali bored sia.
dun feel lik gg hm yet
cam tk biaser ar alek siang sgt.
kat uma pon uknnye ader org. haha
hmm wad 2 write eh..
let me flashback...

oh yar!
had ma 1st everrr performance at de atrium 4 de luchtym thingy.
kiter da mcm support brazil sae.
GREEN n YELLOW costumes. tt was de dress code lar.
so i had ma green tank top on,black pants ,yellow headband
n yellow netted handsocks. nasib diyana pinjamkn sae. tenkiu!
ohh nt 4gettin a striking yellow "belt" ma mum made for me.
awww maseh ibu!! sayang ibu.
de rest of de stagearters play arnd wif de 2 colours la
sum cropped top la,cap la,wristband la,sports-bra la..
MACAM2 ADe..felt reali united sae. heez

de make-uping tym was fun.
oll had green n yellow eyeshadows wif de "cat-eyez" look.
vavavoom. dramatic sae.
face no prob but ma hair was de prob.
naz filled ma hair wif dunnoe-wad hair foam until it looked so LEPEH
otherwise known as flat. 'mcm-aru-abes-mandi' look.
so i flipped it arnd n messed up ma hair lik nobody's bisness.
i LOVE out-of-bed style of hair wif de heck-care kind of attitude. haha

enuff bout our dressing..
overall de performance was OK..
da startin part cocked up coz they on de music,off,den on again.
saper tk confuse? + nga GABRA lagi.muahah
part gelek pantat jer audience da woo sane,woo sini. ceh. haha
nxt wk nye alumni nyte plan 2 do better argh. n oso on 14th.
make sure hv eye-contact wif at least ONE audience n dance wif confidence.
"dancers cannot b shy" tts wat rene owaes saed.
n oso show ma steps wif attitude. show tt we're nt from 'kucing-kurap-club'. haha.
but from Stage ARTS.
our seniors did a gerrreeaat job.*clapclap* nyce one guys.
felt reali touched wen foreign bodies actuali screammed n supported us.
i heard from de backgrnd; "OMG! ive nvr seen sooo many stagearts dancers before!"
dunoe whu saed it la but yarx. ;)

tmr is his bdae n sun is our so-called '1yr-anniv'
but things did nt turn out de wae we wanted it 2 b.
tinkin of hw he may b expectin me 2 celebrate his bdae bt i jus cnt.
hw cruel cn i be. but den again...
wonderin hw his lyfe is ryte nw.
weder if he's copin well in skool n oll dt.
i know im styll reminiscin de tyms we had evry opportunity i gt.
daydreamin n starin into blank space
tots of which i never had to chance 2 figure out.
qns of "what ifs" n "is it me or him" kpt appearin in ma head.
doesnt matter whu's in de wrong ryte nw.
tinkin bck,he never treated me bad.
sumtyms i jus wish we cld forget de past n start tings new.
as they sae,'arguments make pple even closer'.
bt i know its impossible.
unless he reali reali reali love me tt much.
'once i break ngn seseorng,tk mungkin i akan menerime nye kembali'
was wad he saed. haiz.
i wish he cld be more realistic n accept de fact tt no one's perfect.
life is nothin w/o mistakes.
shld we patch up? or shld we carry on?
duno if he'd moved on but i certainli havent.
been rejectin oll de guys tt wana get 2 noe me.
jus plain uninterested. nt tt im kerek or smthin.
Y? because he styl have a place in ma heart.
waitin waitin waitin tyl de ryte one comes...