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Monday, April 30, 2007

{ freed on 8:16 AM

blogger has been a big pain in the *** lately.
hahahs.
as i was abt to spill new juices into ma blog,
it just HAD to make problems.
typed correct password
but still cnt log in. dang!
so had to resort to making a new one.
and watever i wanted to wrote in back den,
is now forgotten.
havent u heard?
-im such a forgetful person. =p

refresh.
on sat,
went to granny's hse to mt cuz n chill.
i soooo love my grandma can?
i miz her too.
n she was sick. hope she gets better...
went to perm my hair near dat area.
done by my mum's fren.
its a salon in her own hse.
how cool is dat!
ive owaes wanted a perm for a change.
im so bored of flat hair!
but to be honest im not too satisfied wif e result.
i wanted tendrils. but i got tight waves instead.
unsatisfied customer.
haiya.
owells. wats done is done.
i mite as well get use to it. hahas!

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during the perming session. GOSH!

AFTER. how do i look?

so wadya tink? hehe.

of cos i haf to add sum wax to define dose curls.
bleahs!

then,
i went straight to sch to watch NYP Musical.
as i wasnt pleased wif ma hair,
i bunned it up so nobody wld notice.
n noone did!! hahahaha.
as i was late plus dear was EVEN late,
we oni get to watch the last 1/4 of the show.
but im grateful cos i managed to catch
the stagearters perform. haha
overall,
it was an effort paid off.
they truly shine. =)

makaning and lepak session wif
dear plus fellow stagearters + rock climber.
catch up on the old tymes.
flashback to e past.
where we had so much fun in dance back then.
nw im glad i haf smthn to look bck on poly life
once i graduate.
hehe!
love u guys.

n so tmr is labour day.
a day to appreciate workers out dere.
no school.
meanwhile i'll be searching for pendek's prez tmr
wif dose giler2 pple. LOL

and URGH.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANA TRADE
MY PHONE FOR A NEW ONE.
CAN I??

its getting on my nerves.
dear has been calling me but jus cnt get tru
cos of dis stupid fone.
=(
n i cant contact others at tyms too.
so wats the use of this fone?
MITE AS WELL THROW KAN?

bleahs.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

{ freed on 9:08 AM

last wed..
after sch met up wif the gurlies.
pendek wore a dress!
kint wore the same skirt as me!
shiq wore new pink pointed pumps frm Topshop!
goli bubble us AGAIN!
bleahs as usual LOL.
she owaes cnt make it for our grp outings.
well we excuse her dis tym
due to family reasons. hahs.
goli...goli...tsk tsk.

went to je library
cos shiq suggested its a nice plc to chill.
had a caramel frappe(tried it 4 1st tym)
and i swear dey added tonnes of sugar in it.
org tdo leh bangun seh. hahaha
we searched ard the lib for a comfy plc
to hangout but everywhere PACKED wif students.
settled sumwhere n due to rainy weather,
it was super cold.
wearing a skirt plus airconditioned plc doesnt help LOL.
shiq has to leave early to meet her bf. haix
we hardly even talk abt sum 'stuffs' seh..
wen can we meet as a complete grp?
duno if its posb..
did sum cutting n pasting dere.
honestly we dun quite lik the lib atmosphere
cos we kept whispering as tho we're kidnapped.
hahahaha.
ppl stared everytime we laugh.
so we pindah to Jurong point
and had dinner plus hangouts.
mood nt too gud
ps: cheer up girlfrens..
hopefully oder days will be better.
*winks*

sumtyms even the slightest slip of the tongue
can cause unpleasant situations.
a joke to us may seem harsh on oders.
we can see oder's mistakes better
than wad we see in ourselves.
so to all,
speak in a way where u want oders to speak bck to u.
it wld be better if we minus off
the loud tone, the fury expressions and sarcastic hints.
replace dem with
softer soothing voice, generous smiles and sincerity.

and btw, nobody is perfect.
not me not u.
and if we are, we cant learn frm mistakes.

and to dear,
im sorry.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

{ freed on 9:25 AM

Girls are like apples on trees.
The best ones are at the top of the tree.
Boys dont want to reach for the good apples
because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead they get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy.
So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them,
when in fact, they are amazing.
They just have to wait for the right boy,
the one who will risk everything,
who's brave enough to climb all the way up
to the top of the tree.

=)
randomness.
a guy who's good in climbing trees?
i'll end up wif a monkey hahahaha.
jus sth to share..

Sunday, April 22, 2007

{ freed on 1:04 AM

im kinda freaked out by our yr 3 schedules.
my batch is the 1st batch
to have our PRCP for 3months instead of 6wks.
and to have 6months attchment in total.
so to say we have 1 sem of academic
and 1 sem of clinical. ishhh.
and the academic modules SUPPOSEDLY
to have on semester 2 is pushed forward
to semester 1.
so its kinda cramped up.
clinical lab skills 8hrs per week.
FYP due in 6months.
bleahs!
i still havent get a grip yet.
HAHA!
school school school.
lets change topic shall we.
next!

had fun during lab practice on fri.
walked ard in crutches.
mini 'race' wif eddy.
we made our own plaster cast.
lab lesson becums art class haha!
the bandage can b moulded like clay.
i did one for asz.
nice kan kan?
abeh bangga LOL.
she kept it as souvenior haha.

posing wif her cast...

met dear yest.
we went cycling at ecp..
i was feeling dizzy at one tym seh.
i nearly blacked out.
placed my bike aside n shut my eyes.
i can hear dear's voice but cnt see him.
serve me right for nt having breakfast.
prolly cos of dehydration.
or mayb im anaemic. MAYBE i duno. haha.
sorry dear for making u feel bad..
im fine jus tt i haf an empty stomach lol.
raced on the bike wif him
n he won of cos. =p
cey cey da pandai pakai gear.
i ride in circles lik 'bdk kampung'? haha
kicked his leg but failed to make him fall.
LOL play play oni.
love the breeze on my face bt sweat non-stop.
too bad i duno hw to skate
if not can skate 2gether.
dear wanted to buy a new bike.
pelan2 kayuh k?
i noe u haf oder tings in mind too.
u noe i noe hahah!
wanted to eat SATAY but its crowded.
nxt tym den..
btw.
i tink dear looked xtra cute yest!
i duno y.
especially wen he sleeps in the train.
hehehe. =p
omg.

anw.
HAPPY BDAY SU YI!!

and
HAPPY BDAY ABANGGGG!!
falls on 21st april.
funny, protective and caring bro of mine!
=)

candid. dun ask me wat he's biting. haha

Thursday, April 19, 2007

{ freed on 12:45 AM

to all frens of mine,
and to dat specific sumone,
never ever ever keep ur problems to urself.
share it wif us
let the burden off ur shoulders..
we can lend a listening ear,
a shoulder to cry on,
tell u our point of views
share our experiences together
and try our very best to help
in watever possible ways we can..
if ever u need anitin,
let us noe..
dun be afraid and hesitate to share..
after all,
we can see right thru u..
we noe u need sumone by ur side.
dats y we're here.
wat are frens for...

P.S: Gurl, we hope u consider our advice.
we've told u watever we felt like sayin.
but at e end of the day
its u who make the decision..
U who's leading ur life
just rem wat we told u kay.
we're owaes here for u...

Girls by Destiny's Child

Take a minute girl, come sit down
And tell us what's been happening
In your face I can see the pain
Don't you try to convince us that you're happy
We've seen this all before
But he's taking advantage of the passion
Because we've come too far For you to feel alone
You don't let him walk over your heart
I'm telling you

Girl, I can tell you've been crying
And you needing somebody to talk to
Girl, I can tell he's been lying
And pretending that he's faithful and he loves you
Girl, you don't have to be hiding
Don't you be ashamed to say he hurt you
I'm your girl, you're my girl, we your girls
Don't you know that we love ya..

us at coffeebean//*

btw..
i wana say sumthin.
i wana shout it out loud.
STAGEARTS DANZ INC RAWKED!!!

THEY TOTALLY STOLE THE SHOW!

THEY WERE GREAT AT CLUBCRAWL!!

AND I LOVE MY BF!! ooops.

sungguh tk related.

heheheheh. =p

okay dah.
i can shut up now.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

{ freed on 8:38 AM

hola!

been busy wif werk,
not much tym to blog. hehe
well well.
5 days attachment at kkh went smoothly.
lotsa TOP(termination of pregnancies) and cancer cases.
got to observe severe post-op wound dressing.
learnt abt chemotherapy schedule in e ward.
basically we did paras n more parameters!!
n staffs was okay.
lecturer was naice.
tho i felt tt we din learn much,
it was a whole new experience.
phew.
glad its over and done wif.
hehe!
next.

last tues after werk,
went out wif asz n nad
bt b4 dat saw dee at Novena Square.
byk2 org jumpe dier. HAHA.
went to Gelare n bought a drink
but dey ate waffles(half price on tues. hahs)
it was actualli a late bday treat fer nad.
met up wif her after lik soooo long.
den we walk ard far east.
she wanted a long necklace..
i was happy i bought e right prez way in advance.
bt jus dat i cldnt gv her tt day
but on sat instead.
glad u like it beb!
met farihin after dat
and he looked different.
congrats on making it to ITE simei ya.
den he introduced me to his fren
who noes me but i dono her. haha
she noes where i live n where im skoolin at.
weird. ive nvr met her. HAHA.

last wed after werk,
went out wif shiq n kint.
in search of a file for our bitch book.
stuffs frm Prints was so blardy nice
but damn expensive seh!
den we hangout at Starbucks at suntec ct
n wrote mre stuffs..
goli joined us later wif her cuz amreet.
too bad pendek wasnt dere! (buihhh je ehk)
den me n kint bought ma contact lenses
cos my eyes was bloodshot red.
the optician told me to see doctor
as it was inflammed.
till nw havent check LOL
well, it was better now i guess..

met dear jus now.
we were hoping it wldnt rain and it did.
but it stopped! hehe.
went to siloso beach
to hangout n chill.
we were amazed by the flying trapeze!
small kids can do dat sia. wow.
den i went in the water
in search of crabs! lol
i went deeper n felt sumthin soft n jelly-like.
ewwwww.
den i went sumwhere else. FURTHUR.
it was boring to b in e water alone. haha.
dear cldnt go in cos he din bring xtra clothes.
he taught me how to float near the surface
n i failed lotsa times.
tried to lift up ma hands bt i sunk in again.
seawater in my eyes n ears. lol.
malu nyerrr. hehe.
dear kept sayin try again n dont give up.
but i jus cldnt do it.
he shld jus b my swimming instructor.
no choice bt haf to b damn patient wif me.
haha!
den we ate at vivo
cos we kebuluh mcm puase 10 hari. lol.
den went home cos dear had to leave early.
njoyed every moment wif ya.
i love u dear.
i really do...

gosh school startin on mon.
im still in e holiday mood!
yikes.
i still hvnt done my shoppin spree yet!
havnt done my hair!
havnt packed my stuffs!
havent cleared my junks!
havnt tot of wat to wear!
okay stop it.
basically im not prepared full stop.
nyehs.

tink i shld get gg now.
tata!

Monday, April 09, 2007

{ freed on 4:22 AM

today is the 1st day of attachment.
being in the gynae ward.
sumtin new i guess.
but 1 tings for sure it gets boring at tyms.
HAHAS.
too many staff, too lil patients.
well only for today lar.
i hope it gets better tmr and e days after.
countless standing ard doin nutin
and frequent yawns.
lack of sleep + nutin to do = bored me.
=p
all e oder peeps will agree too.
hehes.

somehow my heart feels heavy.
tryin hard to ease the feeling
but it jus wun leave.
the pillow has been the only witness
for the constant tear drops.
oh hw i wish it speaks
so it can dry my eyes and console me.
wonderin wat've gone wrong.
countless reflections.
countless 'fitting into the others' shoe'.
finally reality hits on me hard.
karma does happens.
being nice is difficult.
trapped in a hole of confusion.
wishing for a better tomorrow.
where i can look at everyone in the eye
and smile.

understand to be understood.

Sunday, April 08, 2007

{ freed on 8:46 AM

hey hey hey.
put up a new pic dere.
NAICE?
i simply love it.
the sunset view by the beach omg gorgeous.
hehehe.

and sweet song too. =)
addictive bebbbbb.
hahas.

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the GIRL you love and hold HER tight
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be, so very fine
So happy together

I can't see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

{ freed on 9:51 AM

trees and more trees!
hahaha.

WED 4/4/07
went pulau ubin wif NR0511 peeps.
me sus wani kasturi(wani's bro) lidan zaf shamili may xueyuan junping suyi maureen.
took bus 29 frm tamp to changi jetty
n den bumboat to PU.
rented bikes bt sum were spoilt HAHA.
useless sia haf to U-turn back.
waited n waited for the slow ones to catch up
cos we insist on riding
as a grp. LOL
one for all, all for one. (cey cey)
uphill, downhill of slope,
burning hot, nice windy weather.
dogs n more dogs (mane ade monyet seh haha!)
nice views of query.
took lotsa pics. hehe.
went into the trail n adventure begins.
weeeeeeeee!
PUDDLES OF MUD, tree branches,unstable ground.
fresh smell of dried leaves and salt sea water.
got lost in the trail due to lotsa dead ends HAHA.
2 casualties: Zaf and Su yi (abrasions on butt n knees)
water suddenly becum VERY IMPORTANT.
dehydrated and roasted skin.
heavy bulky backpack.
noisy and squeeky bike.
damn irritating big mosquitoes.
damn big dogs. (i scared of dogs ok. lol)
damn painful butt n tiring legs.
damn long bike journey.
damn PAMPERED nisa HAHA.
wadya xpect
its the nature kan..=)

BUT

damn FUNNNNNNNNNN!!!
wif damn chaotic and irritating ppl around!
n the feeling of wind on ur face
wen u go down the slope in full speed
is so DAMN SYIOK.
hahaha.
u wana haf dis kind of outing
once every 2 months?
wah piang.
later all becum super fit nurses.
haha!
okay im tired wana sleep.
nite2!
missin ma baby tonite..

abit small uh. taken at entrance...

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

{ freed on 1:07 AM

"I don't remember how we happened to meet each other.
I don't remember who got along with whom first.
All I can remember is all of us together...always."
- Unknown

"When u ask God for a gift,
be thankful when he sends,
not diamonds, pearls or riches
but the love of real true friends."
-Helen Steiner Rice

MON 2/4/07
met my darlings
shiq kint and pendek
cos they wanted to cheer me up.
lepak at esplanade
and jus chill
njoying the company of each oder.
dey certainly brought back
the smiles and laughter to ma face.
ate satay after like so long. LOL
thanks alot u guys...
and yeah.
"bitch bk" cumin up
dedicated to us 5 to write in
anitin tt we're happy or unhappy wif.
retricted to only our views.haha
includes our memories since we met.
smthn to look up upon as yrs go by.
cnt wait HEHE.

after dat met dear
and dat makes ma day a whole lot better.
he looks geeky but cute wf specs.HEHE
thanks darling for that listening ear.
i completely blew off wen talkin bout sum
sensitive issues i had.
n sorry for constantly
poking u and cubit-ing ur babats
wich u term as 'muscles' HAHA.
ampun ya pak?
i constantly adore being around u.
love ya as owaes.
muacks...

company of frens. =)

u brought ma smile back. haha!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

{ freed on 6:37 AM

every life has an end.
the young, the old,
strangers or even ur loved ones.

i must be strong.
i must learn to let go.

SAT 31/03/07
i had plans wif dear bt it was cancelled.
mayb it happened for a reason.
mayb GOD wanted sumting else to happen.

met mum n sis.
after walking ard causeway,
mum suggested to go cik Madi's hse soon after.
she wanted to see grandma.
i was shocked as i din noe she was discharged.
knowing her condition,
i was curious why she wasnt bein
monitored closely in hospital instead.

i can vividly remember.
upon reaching dere,
as usual we went straight to see grandma.
her NGT still intact n she was breathin hard.
she lookied very pale.
her mouth was foamy.
wen i asked the maid,
she said its 'normal'.
Cik Madi asked me to check her pulse.
as i alwaes did everytime i visit her.
told him tt i cnt feel her pulse
wen i checked her right hand.
he asked me to check her left hand,
in a joking manner.
in my position, i cnt reach the oder hand
so he said,
"sha nak pakcik panggil taxi bwk sha dtg sblah sini?"
we laughed.
NOBODY tot THAT laughter can bring tears.
den i cldnt feel anitin on her left wrist either.
i started to panic.
i looked at nenek,
n saw tears flow down her cheek.
suddenly her hard breathing come to a stop.
i called out to her.
checked her radial, brachial and carotid pulse.
felt for the air from her nostrils.
nothing.
everyone ard me asked me the same question.
"ader tak sha???"
i stood dere numb.
i was hoping for a single beat of pulse in my mind
but there was clearly none.
all i can say was,
"cha tak tau... cha tak sure..."
den one by one started crying.
mom, dad, aunt, sis..
dey asked me the same qn over n over.
"ADER TAK SHA???"
n den i started to cry too.
asked my aunt to called SCDF
and dey came soon after.
i was praying so hard.
i wanted to prove them wrong.
dey told us,
no breathing n no pulse present.
dats when dey asked whether
we want dem to resuscitate her,
or let her go and redha.
it was a hard decision.
we had to let her go...

it was barely 5mins wen we came to see her.
n now she's gone..
dad told us that grandma was waitin for us
before she took her last breath.
she knew we were coming.
she KNEW we were there by her side..

it was the most agonising moment n my life.
someone i love, someone whus dear to me..
but its all GOD's will,
He loves her more then we do.
and its all fated that we get to witness
the last moments of her life.
by her side,
her sons...
her daughter in laws..
and also her grandchildren..

as im typing dis entry,
i cldnt hold back my tears.
it was heart-wrenching
to recall it all back.
i know i had to be strong.
i know i had to let go.
nek...
chacha sayang nenek...
moga Allah mencucuri roh nya.
Amin.

thanks to dear n frens who showed concern to me.
i really appreaciate it..