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Monday, July 30, 2007

{ freed on 12:03 AM

outdated entry. hehe...
went to July Babies Bday chalet at Changi.
*Lyn, Oats and Fnd*
(20-22/7/07).
went on sat wif my baby. hehe...
it was a year-long planned chalet, it was a success.
ate nice food, made frens wif nice people..
i was the 2nd youngest among the group. i tink.
sat at the shaky bench where we nearly topple over. LOL
how often do u hear a 2year old say,
"why is the man wearing the hat?" haha...
helped make some decorations plus autograph session.
group foto shots taken felt like were we big stars. (padehal2)
they had fun. I had fun. everyone had fun.
sadly my baby had to go off work early..*sobsob*

pictures...

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From left: Fnd, Lyn, Oats

something special for them... =)

Grp pic w/o my baby..

me and my cacat pose. lol

their cupcakes! *drools*

and ohhhhh.
FINALLY all 5 of us could make it. hehe.
met my darls last fri (27/7/07)
went out jus to chill and look for some stuffs.
me wanted to survey for a new hp cos mine died. hehe.
me and sabariah oso wanted to look for skirts
cos we tryin to be more "girly" haha.
potpouri skirts are daym nice but $$.
so we gona try search at Dhoby Exchange shops nxt tym..
i bought an outfitter top tt was on sale.
my baby joined us soon after cos he wanted to help me find phone.
but sadly the Starhub shops was closed at PS..
duno got wat event sia... Dinner and Dance or smthn..hahs.
so we head down to Starbucks at cathay to join my frens.
we prefer coffeebean to Starbucks actualli. owells..
chill ard, slacked. cam-whored. WOOOOO.
goli joined us soon after wif pedicured nails.
my baby trying to hide somethin from me. hmpt!
he unfolded the rose he suppose to give me,
and folded it back wo letting me see.
tryin to make me so geram. *cubit his cheeks*
but i guess all the more special ryte...
total i have 15 roses honey.
many more to come.. hehe.
njoyed the company wif the darlings plus my baby.
=))

for more pictures:
http://honeysticky.multiply.com/photos/album/3

ALHAMDULILLAH..
for several reasons.
-parents sort of approve our relationship. =)
-presented all my ICA projects! all done!
-baked cupcakes successfully. on my own!
-gona get a new fone soon!
-plenty of family bonding. i mean PLENTY.
-have a sweet and lovable darling in my life. =)

jus wished i cld spend more time wif more people.
so many things, so little time.
and (random), people wif attitude problem,
please reflect and change yourself.
please dont go ard showing ur temper to others
when u noe we cant be bothered.
save ur effort.
thank you.

exams ard the corner.
so work hard guys!
our final year!
chia YO!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

{ freed on 2:20 AM

my fone died on me yesterday.

it just collapsed.
it's last few hours was traumatising.
it flickered hard, signalling its end of life.
and then it became slow...

attempts were made to revive it.
but still......

it finally died.

im gona miss u.

time to get a new one la sia!
hahs...

Monday, July 23, 2007

{ freed on 1:16 AM

today is a not-so-nice day for me. =(

felt like blogging.... but cnt find the correct words.

im still in denial.

shocked.

i noe i can do better. WAYYY better.

but i fumbled. and jumbled. and crumbled.

that made me wail like a baby.

heck, if that made me feel better then why not.

im a perfectionist.

i dun take failures well.

i crave for time. and lotsa practice.

and now my mind is still clogged.

i need help.

get myself back together. compose myself.

and now i feel sick. demam. daym.

dahla im going to balek rumah and have a good rest.

P.S: to kint, thx for the help beb. owaes there when needed.
to my baby, u helped me get thru this. thanks and i love u.

im in no mood to continue furthur....

Friday, July 20, 2007

{ freed on 8:01 PM

I MISS MY DARLS...
plus GOLI (not in picture).
hehe.
going out cam-whoring again sumday?
plus the coffeebean hangouts and filling up of our scrapbook..
next bday: mine.
*hint hint*
hehe...

OH MAGAWD.
first my baju. then my newly-bought black pants.
(jemur outside the house)
and now my sneakers!
its gone!
tried to find them ard the house.
the storeroom too.
and they simply disappeared.
planned to go gymming today but cancelled cos i cnt find my shoes!
searched the hse till i was late for lecture. haha
even mummy help me find till she's late for work too i guess.
da semangat nk work-out after a long while ni...
den kasut hilang.. pffffbt.
"ah tu la tknk check semalam, time nk kluar baru check.."
why shld i check my shoes the day b4 everytime i wana wear them mummy?
nyehs.

nisa...
moral of the story is;
dont place ur stuffs outside the house.
not the new ones especially.
period.
*sheesh....

ah balek carik lagi lar.
.......

Thursday, July 19, 2007

{ freed on 12:38 AM

okay so i got Jessica Leong for assessment on tues.
and yeah she failed me. =(
and so did the rest.
got Function Skill test for the skills1
and she purposely removed some parts from the air viva bag
to see how i react to the situation.
and i made mistakes along the way,
especially my documentation.
owells....
the others got Airway mgt and they failed too.
BY HER.
somehow there were unhappiness gg ard in our class
cos those who were assessed by kamala all passed.
tho they made grave mistakes but were given a chance.
but the rest who got Jessica was given the Retest Form.
so we tot it was unfair.
nyehs....
satu malam tkle tido seeing her face in my dreams.
traumatising sia.. haha.
finally Ms jessica and Ms kamala had a long talk wif us
to clarify the unhappiness wif the whole class.
"you can afford to make mistakes in school, but not outside.
you wont be given a second chance."
hehs. kinda true actually.
in this way we're able to learn more tings.
to get the concept right.
not repeat the same mistakes and be better nurses.
so i guess i wont see failure as the end of the world.
but someting tt can make me improve.
hehe...

skills1 retest just now and i passed.
phew!
now need to focus on skills 2 wich is nxt mon.
hehs..

theory ppr over.
okay2 lar.
just wait for the results.
hehehehehe.
*prays hard*

attachment postings out ardy.
we've nvr been more excited abt attachments. haha.
especially where we're gona go out for our PRCP.
for me,
after exams will be Break week, followed by
3weeks: Gerontology at AH
1week: ED
1week: OT
5weeks: Break + Vacation Leave
2Days: HSE
12weeks: PRCP

owells...
maybe im fated to go Alexandra Hosp.
since year ONE. haha
YESSA my darlings will be dere too.
hehe..
and we will dance ard while doing dressings again.
AH Idols. haha!
"ketipang ketipang ketipong..." LOL
inside joke.
miss dose times.

gtg.
meeting me baby soon.
=)
toodles..

Monday, July 16, 2007

{ freed on 12:52 AM

haish!
dis means i will be assessed by JESSICA LEONG tmr!
1st skills assessment:-
Manual Resuscitator Function Test / Airway Management.
i wanted Ms kamala to assess me sooo badly seh.
i like her style of teaching and grading students.
she let us talk/ give rationales and time limit= 10minutes.
first 14 students in my class ardy tested by her.
however,
Jessica only want us to implement the skills and do in 1 minute!
i repeat....ONE MINUTE. or else she minus marks.
no talking watsoever.
so unfair sia...
and my name was not called out randomly by kamala jus nw.
so wich means im getting Jessica tmr!!
daym..
*prays hard*

kinda packed wif schwork nowadays.
skills 1(tues), skills 2(nxt mon), theory ppr(wed),
ICAs: Breast Cancer(nxt wk), Deskilling(nxt wk), Breastfeeding exhibition(nxt 2wks),
Nursing project product submission(nxt 3wks)...
so now im researching abt the machines( tk dpt2 the info), CA breast info submitted.
2 ICAs need to be done in a week!
blah blah blah...
HS3041 theory paper revision untouched. hehe.
see, nisa owaes do last minute...
habes nanti kena nag by my ayang. hehe.
he nag oso shows he concern abt me. =p
so trying to cramp stuffs into my brain,
and multi-task wenever possible..
CBT pon havent watch yet.
tmr's tutorial havent completed.
heheheehhe. haiyahhhh.
I HAVENT EVEN HAD A PROPER MEAL FOR THE DAY.
hungry...
dang!
watver..
i need to complete watever shits tt nd to be completed.
so to say i have to STOP blogging now!
hehe.

ehhhhh wait...
my ayang ardy start his proper shift work.
so he wun get to contact/ meet me as often.
he's gona tell me abt his schedule soon.
goshhh i miss my baby lar.
hehe.

we did each other a favour.
wich is to throw watever things tt reminded us of the past.
anw, it isnt of any use anyway.
so no use keeping watver memories each had last tym.
so now we only focus on the present and future.
no more turning back.
we have a lifetime together ryte baby.
hehe.
miss ya honey.

kay dah...
my eyes red and watery!
back to projects!

Thursday, July 12, 2007

{ freed on 11:22 PM

I will never find another lover
sweeter than you, sweeter than you
I will never find another lover
more precious than you, more precious than you

Boy you are
Close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything
and for you this song I sing

All my life I pray for someone like you
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too

Said I promised to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
i really love ya..

You're all that I've ever known,
your smile on your face, all I see is a glow,
You turned my life around,
You picked me up when I was down..
I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too..

feeling lovey-dovey today.
hehehe....

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

{ freed on 9:43 PM

the past weekend was awesome.
spending tym wif ur loved ones can nvr fail to make ur day,
can it? hehe..

as im in the middle of my Deskilling project,
i tink i'll make dis entry brief yups.
plus its raining and im freezing and nose sniffing
and my fingers are so numb and my mind is blank.
bleahs..

sat (07/07/07) nice date seh.
movie marathon wif my baby.
Harry potter series plus some oder movies.
at least i have somebody to nudge wen in doubt.
*winks*
njoyed myself the whole day.
hehe..
dear wanted a day away from family and friends.
only me and him, him and me.
i treasure every moment we're together.
hehe..

Sun (8/7/07)
supposedly a family day,
but i went ahead to watch Transformers again wif my dear.
for the SECOND TYM but im nt sick of it seh! hehe
his frens (hamzah, fnd and lyn) book the tixs
and they joined us too.
fnd asked me to take a driving license
but i told him i dowan cos i ardy hv a personal driver.
hehe.
coincidentally i was wearing a top that says,
"Gotta love a guy who can drive!"
and i showed it to him and he laughed. LOL
then marina joined us and we ate dinner at al-ameen.
lyn's choice. hehe.
im still wondering how they can tickle my dear.
i still dun hv the technique.
guys! teach me tickle-me-elmo so i can tickle him!
heheh..

mon(9/7/07)
went to watch ayang's POP after sch wif asz.
Maritime Policing Course at Pulau Brani.
its a short ceremony, but dear looked so smart seh!
wow...
P.S: i have a thing for guys in uniform. hush hush..
hehe!
me and asz camwhored at that place.
its soooo peaceful we loike!
let the pickas do the talking yups.
(shant post the parade pics cos of certain reasons.. hehe)

the invitation card...(mcm card jemputan lol)

the PCG boat..

me and asz posing. love the background!

me and my Mr Policeman. =)

looking at the time now.
1.48pm. yikes...
lecture coming up soon.
gtg. hehe.
tata!

Friday, July 06, 2007

{ freed on 11:17 PM

wah liao.
so long never update again.
hehe!
since i got tym now better update.
later some people bising. hehe!
i noe u guys missed me kan kan kan?
=p
i have a feeling dis will be a loooong entry.

recap recap.

Fri (29/06/07)
we redo our Nursing project video after sch.
went to maureen's hse instead of my granny's.
change of plans as usual. nyehs.
the baby bath part was torture.
im the voice narrator, asz n xueyuan as the nurses,
maureen as video woman, audrey the 'director', the doll as the baby.
every little step has to be planned out.
every little move is crucial.
in one small step, we took 4-5 takes.
every angle needed to be perfect.
no hand blocking the baby's face, no background noises,
no camera-shaking, no this and that.
thats y it was torture.
haha.
they were tired of doing e steps, i was tired of talking.
imagine the same tings again n again. bleahs!
next we had to act out a roleplay.
nurse=xueyuan
asz=mother
me=grandmother
doll=baby
audrey=camerawoman
the play was interesting.
dey said i was born to act auntie2 roles.
chet!!!
i used an umbrella n a basket, walking ard limping,
going to the market.
basically all i need to do was nag at e mother(asz).
easy enough. da biaser buat. hehe..
p.s: read on to find out wat happened to e videos we took.
haiz...

sat (30/06/07)
met my honey.
he fetched me from my hse n we went to vivo.
as i was wearing short pants,
my legs felt hot as his bike was heating up.
his bike wasnt meant for Asian weather
so it gets heated up fast. hehe..
din really wana windowshop
but jus wana sit dwn n talk..
felt so happy wenever im wif him..
n i learnt smthing new everytym.
*winks*
felt like i wana turn back the time
or freeze the moment wenever we're together.
was abit emotional at one tym
but glad he understand..
reading back my previous msges from wan
suddenly made me tink bck abt the past..
the more i try to forget, the more it came back.
im so lucky to have him by my side
to cheer me up and bring bck the smile to my face.
thats y i decided to delete all my previous msges
to have more memory space n oso to forget the past.
its hard n it takes tym..
to rai, if u're wondering y me n wan broke up,
its because we lack trust, support and communication..
our rlp leads to nowhere..
history kept repeating n im sick of it..
despite endless attempts.
thats y we drift apart..
sometyms i tink that it sucks to break up wif wan
for the third tyme..
but actually its a hidden blessing.
if not, i wouldnt have met HIM.
n i wldnt have been THIS happy.
hopefully he is THE one.
=)
weeeee.

my baby..

wed (4/07/07)
after sch met up wif saloma n sabariah.
planned to go out as a grp but unexpected tings came up.
so the others was excused.
u owe us gayah n asmah. hmpt!
watched tranformers at PS
it was a hellava great movie.
surprising as i dun quite fancy action movies. hehe.
it was their 2nd tym watching but dey insist on
watching it again wif ME.
awwwww so sweet. nyehs.
den we went far east to shop
as me n sabariah da tangan gatal pocket da berat.
we bought a bag each at zinc, i bought a 'belt',
sabariah bought 2 tops if im nt wrong ar.
went to zara to checkout the sales.
it was cheap sia. geram je seh.
but too bad i din hv enough money to spend. =(
saloma went home wif tangan kosong haha.
trio amigos are back!!

thurs(5/07/07)
Nursing project presentation.
last minute sorting out of who present wat.
den suddenly all panicked.
half of our videos was GONE.
last week we kept changing mmc as there was lack of memory space.
den we got mixed up as to who's mmc
e oder half of our video is saved in
mampos sehhhhh.
open all mmcs, nowhere to b found.
we argued cos mayb audrey transfered all to her laptop ardy.
but she said she dint.
den dey said dey used my mmc all along.
but it wasnt found inside.
wonder where it went seh.
din touch my camera since dat day,
so there's no possibility of me accidentally deleting it.
n we found out ON THE DAY of our presentation.
baik ar.
ms lai bew meng was sick n she nearly cancelled the tut.
but seishen's grp insist on presenting tt day.
we told her our problem n LUCKILY e product
only need to be submitted 2wks later.
so we present wat we can n went ahead.
overall, it went well. yessssa.
happpppy nyer kiterrrr. hua hua hua.
=)
yg video tu, blakang criter.
we will video AGAIN. owells...

den our class had to helpout wif the graduation.
me n asz was assigned to nursing students wif merit.
it was kinda chaotic as we sort dem up acc to deir seat no.
we had to wear formal attire seh. haha
watching the ceremony was both tear-dropping and hilarious.
sad that we only hv a few months b4 graduation
n we kept visualising ourselves up on stage nxt year.
wearin the gown walking on stage as our names are called.
asz plan nk pakai kasut pink, wani kasut neon green.
just to catch audience attention.
suker hati korang la.
hahaha.
den we did our 'linkway to lounge' duty
and me n suyi said' gd evening' to the guests enetering the door.
haha! for fun je. senyum kene extra manis. lol.
refreshments was okay. the sweet sour fish was awesome.
mcm nk tapao bring back home.
hehe.
den we took photos in the lounge
as tho its OUR graduation.
ber-feeling2 ajer. =p

NR0511. love these guys!!

outdated pic. i miss my straight hair. hehe. asz gona kill me for posting this pic. LOL

cnt wait to meet my baby.
getting darker oooops.
hehe.

bdae shoutout.
HAPPY 20TH BDAY TO MA CUZ:
NUR SHARIFAH
aka kakak nono. =P

gota go.
nisa signing out.
*poof*