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Monday, May 28, 2007

{ freed on 12:24 AM

last sat, met my darls.
went sabariah's hse to hangout.
i was late as usual.
normah...normah. HEHE.
nearly fell aslp in bus 188.
dey picked me up from the bustop,
den we head to bukit merah interchge.
cos sabariah nd to get dis anti-virus tingy.
played dis stupid BUT FUN game. haha
merepek eh kitorang...

went bck to her hse,
and 1st ting i do is... EAT.
nasi lemak power. hehe
her mum was dere too.
initally we planned to jus hangout
BUT dey found out dey hv probs wif deir projects.
last min crisis seh.
i tried to help dem along the way ar.
so the tym was spent doing projects.
HAHAHA.
printed pics for our scrapbook.
i hafta admit,
gal, ur bed is kinda hard to sleep on! haha
but ur room is sooper clean. as usual.

den we bake a choc cake
it doesnt look nice but it tastes lik heaven..
YUMMY.
offer sum to her mum
but she let us eat all. haha

den we watched vcd
but too bad tym wasnt on our side..
had a great tym wif the babes.
=))

some pikchas:

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choc cake wif choc icecream n choc fudge on top. plus milo dinosaur~ WEE

JU_ON sequel....

okie.
more pictures will upload nxt tym kays.
for now...
TAKE CARE ALL.
=))

Friday, May 25, 2007

{ freed on 9:18 AM

woots.
finally back home.
time to update. hehe..

ive watched PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN 3.
thursday 24rd May 2007.
was broke but kinda forced la hehe.
njoyed the show wif the gurlies.
3hrs. mcm hindustan lei.
worth the watch.
JOHNNY DEPP is cute can?- omg!
huge crush.
i dun quite understand e story
cos of the language lar.
but overall, NICE.
=))

johnny depp :)

jus now aftr school,
met sabariah n saloma again.
went to accpany her mum to mustapha
buy sum stuffs.
her mum cute la sei.
call me sharon ismail LOL.
sent her home, lepak awhile in her hse
den went vivo.
checkout forever21 sale (so upsetting)
cos dere wasnt much diff in the prices, bleahs!
cheat our feelings. hahs.
slacked at coffeebean n camwhored.
im owaes being disturbed by dem.
hmpt!
aku tau la normah ni blur salu, tkya nk kacau je kay.
haha.
den saw akmal dere in his coastguard attire.
he was shy as usual but abit tanned.
cldnt chat for long cos he off to smwhere.
hehe.
den went in search for my lenses.
the new pair i jus bought KOYAK.
din buy cos dey nvr sell 1 pair onli.
basket.
now stick wif specs for tym being.
dey said i looked lik cikgu garang HAHHA.
watever.

im broke..
im so broke.
broke broke broke .
y am i broke at tyms wen i need money the most?
gerammmmm btol seh.
chehs...

girls hangout day tmr.
sabariah's hse.
hopefully asmah n joyah cn make it.
haha.
cnt wait!
choc brownie delight.

seems like my heart is drifting away.
two possibilities.
reel me in or let me sink.
watever fate has for me..

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

{ freed on 7:43 AM

school is so redundant nowadays.
start late, end early.
pantat.

okay.
to some, it may seem like a hoo-ray thingy.
thats wat i usta feel in sec sch.
"best nyerr balek siang."

BUT NOW.

"boring sak balek siang."

hahahaha.
ironic.
nowhere else.
hanya di poly.

n tmr,
i haf lessons from 12-3pm.
bleahs.
y cant dey squeeze two day's timetabble
into 1 day?
den can haf 1 day off frm sch.
at least BETTER KAN.

n now me n my frens kept tinkin.
nak come or skip. HAHAHA.
(pls dont follow us)
we jus tap n go.
but nowadays lecturer very smart.
call out our names randomly.
haiyohhh. kena once.
dont be mistaken.
im a good girl okay.

2 presentations nxt week.
almost done i tink.
i wonder why all groups meetup EVERYDAY
for project discussions.
my grp hardly meet at all.
we distribute our parts, find info,
gather info, tink of presentation methods,
rehearse n we're DONE.
chop chop.
n a work well done hehehe.
buttttt i'd rather meet up.
why?
-cos no need go home early LOL.

gymming wif zaf was great jus now.
i lifted weights can u believe it.
bleahs!
gymming everywk babe!
its a date..
dah semangat ni.

out wif the peeps tmr.
maybe, maybe not.
see how la if sabariah can make it.
hahs!

i cnt find an answer.
but i have hopes.
i still do.
for both of us.
pls dont take that hopes away frm me again..
i miss u.

Monday, May 21, 2007

{ freed on 1:21 AM

okay. i tink its enough.

when i read back my entries,
they all sound sooo DEPRESSING SIA.
hahaha.
like sumone whu needs serious counselling.

im even freaked out by my own words.
i tink i will scare my readers off soon.
cos of my writings,
shows how "happy" i am. hehs.

but thats the whole point of blogging kan.
to express myself.
in that current situation, current time.
and im not supressing it all inside.
i need a media to blurt it out.
for sure.
i can erupt like a volcano.
so be prepared.
not to mention curl up like a helpless kid.

im not exaggerating tings.
im not crying for attention, hell no.
all raw emotions. sumpah tk bedek.
wtf.;
acknowledge them.

tisk.
yang sudah tu sudah...
no point regretting.
no point pointing fingers.
wats done has been done.
n time to get OVER it.
one problem;
i dont know how.

i tink its less convenient
to spurt out personal stuffs in here.
im going back to the traditional;

PERSONAL DIARY.

where i can write watever i want.
thoa its less tiring to type than to write.
hehehe.

nonetheless,
im appreciative of lovely people ard me.
my angels.
sent from God to lift me off the ground.
to hold my hand.
to carve back the smile on my face.
the people whom i call, Friends.

**not forgetting other sweets out dere.
u noe who u are.
u are never forgotten.

now the onli person i need to care about
is Me.
i decide my own life.
all the years of putting others above myself
has put a strain on my back.
as someone once told me,
"you're too soft."
its time i love myself.
hell yeah.

oh gosh i neeed some therapeutic management.
shopping soon gurlies?

GREAT SPORE SALE larrrr.
woo hoo =)

n i miss the gym.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

{ freed on 8:15 AM

im feeling like shit.

tears just kept flowing.

i just cnt take it.

heart felt like breaking apart.

life is so damn complicated.

dun bother asking me why.

i need time alone.

haiz.

Friday, May 18, 2007

{ freed on 12:40 AM

let me take a step back and evaluate my life..

ive been thinking alot to maself.

how long will this continue?

even if its settled, will it bother me again?

why cant i just express my feelings?

why does it affect me more then others?

am i too sensitive to feel what i feel?

why do i smile and laugh on the surface
but cringe and cry when nobody's noticing?

why must i put on a facade and pretend nothin is wrong?

why do i let others hurt me and not make it known
that im hurt?

why am i trying to feel what others want me to feel
but in fact im not feeling that way?

why am i always thinking of others BUT not myself?

what's wrong with me?

why cant u trust me as much as i trusted u?

why am i too soft-hearted?

I feel lonely.
so lonely to the extent that i feel single.
sumtyms im unsure if u miss me.
but i miss you.
trying to occupy my time wif frens and school.
why?
to take my mind off u.

cnt meet, cnt contact even?
dont be surprised if one day i totally forget about u.
why?
because you're drifting away.
you're disappearing.

i wana spend tym wif u.
but i cant.

i think too much?

i'm too sensitive?

it doesnt matter.

im just expressing myself.

I love you.
i want you back.

Learn to understand a girl's feelings.

i feel so lonely..

Sunday, May 13, 2007

{ freed on 5:22 AM

i guess its true.
"Always there wen needed."
thanks for living up to the quote beb.
really appreciate it. =)

hang out wif kint darls yest.
wasnt feeling too gd abt sum issues.
that point of time i realli need a listening ear.
i nd sumone by ma side.
n i need sumone to assess my HS3054 skills too.
padehal2. haha!

so i dropped by her hse,
was welcomed by both her parents.
dey're such lovely pple. honestly.
n kint's mum was hilarious! kewl seh.
they fed me wif lotsa FOOD! n icecream!
wahhhhh heaven.
hangout in her room, download stuffs n watnots.
webcam-ing wif pendek. haha! so slenger.
dahla gigi putih, dahi kilat plak tu. haha
it was so much fun.
wish the other 'giler' ppl was dere too.
hehe.
n thx beb for being there.
jus had lotsa tings in ma head.
hope it doesnt bother u ehk.
maceh byk2. i owe u one. lol
happy revising. gd luck tmr.
jeng jeng jeng.

to mum,
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.
i love my ibu many2 lars.
muacks!

Friday, May 11, 2007

{ freed on 8:38 PM

okay.
quick updates abt my current week.
so far it has been kinda hectic.
haha..

skills 1 assessment on gowning and gloving
was over.
it went well, more then i expected.
because... i wasnt PREPARED that much.
i was weak on the gloving part.
gowning was okay.
the gloves need to be FULLY powdered for it
to slip on my sweaty palms.
i need to have skills and lotsa practice.
on top of dat, i need to b aware of contamination.
so the day before,
i peppered my gloves wif tonnes of powder.
n while i was doing e assessment,
specks of powder flew everywhere wen i wore e gloves.
hahah!
who cares. so long as i cn slip my fingers in smoothly.
and i was the 1st to be tested on dat day.
panicked quite abit,
i breathe heavily thru my mask.
and Ms Lai bew meng is a FUSSY lecturer.
bleahs....
overall, she passed me.
She said that i dint make any mistakes
but i still haf no confidence of maself.
PHEW. done. over. yay.

n yest we jus sat for our skills Theory ppr.
mcqs was shitty as usual,
short answer qns was a breeze.
dun wana elaborate much on it.
OVER. ya-hoo.

hmm...
well, not exactly all are over.
i stll haf anoder skills assessment nxt mon.
n dis tym, der's 4 or 5 skills.
eye dressing, irrigation, CLC, scrubbing, traction..
so early seh.
i haf no tym to practice!
i better watch the daym CBT like now!
hahahaha. slacker.
btw, i skipped lecture today.
why???
to watch this "interesting" CBT.
nyeh.

okay.
wen all of this assessments are FINALLY over,
den i can fully concentrate on my ICAs.
still hanging in mid air.
oh goody.
i so so so so so cnt wait
to do my FYP.
making a mothercraft package.
so intresting!
i cnt wait to film the video!
heheheh.
know any baby to kidnap anione?
just for our project dat is...

n why am i still blogging?
bcos i feel so lazy.
sposse to do CBT.
i better start NOW!

btw, did i mention?
im going gymming today!
hehehe.

i kept glancing on my fone jus now.
still no msg from him.
i miss u alot dear...
where are u?
wen are we meeting seh..

okay dah cukop nisa.
pegi blajar skarang.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

{ freed on 4:20 AM

okay im free.
tym for a more detailed entry.
nyehs.

last tues went to bugis
to find our dear PENDEK a present.
we planned to buy a skirt.
bought for her a tight knee length skirt
but not too short. heheh.
contributed me the 4 gilers plus sis mala n siti..

went ard in search of wallet
for kint's uncle bdae prez.
den kint bought a new camera
tt costs 499bux(beb i noe u hate dis LOL)
wooooooooooo im so jeles of her okay.
we ate at long john
n goli had to leave early.(bubbler)
so me and kint went to shiq's hse
to slack n prepare for pendek's prez.
made her a card
specially designed by ME. =)
shiq's makcik n pakcik came by
n gosh her cousin is HOT.
make kint googoogaaagaa oni.
haha!
ate cheesecake (thnx beb)
n home sweet home.

at LJS. us.

do we look like we care??

the card made for pendek..

den on sat (yest)
celeb pendek's bdae.
planned to prank pendek by telling her
that kint n goli cnt make it.
so me n shiq met her 1st n we act tt
we're angry at them for bubbling us last min.
of course si pendek tk caye.
dey tot of surprising her at e cinema
BUT pendek saw dem dere 1st.
alarrrr PRANK TAK MENJADI.
hahaha!
watched spiderman 3.
worth the watch seh!
goli was getting sick n left early
so we went to border's coffeebean
to chill.
bought her a cake n sang a song.
glad she liked
the skirt + frame + card + cake + us!
hehehehe.
she smile so wide.
gigi maintain beb!
noone can fight ur darlie smile! haha
ps:
all of us wish u all e best in life.
may u find e rite guy n cepat kahwin! LOL
n grow taller pls! den we dun bully u. hehe.
n talk more!!! dont giggle ajer. chet!
alalala...
HAPPY BDAE!

bdae girl...

her cake//

the frame! from us to u...

*make someone smile today.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

{ freed on 1:50 AM

heylo.

today is a no-school day.
today is E-Learning day.
hehs.
so im stuck at home downloading materials
doing assignments and watnots.
wahhhhh nisa sungguh rajin!!!
haha.
my life would be made easier IF
i have Microsoft Word at home.
so kental i noe. lol.
on top of dat,
i haf 7 graded ICA's to worry about.
earliest is due nxt wk and the latest at week 17.
oh heck.
and the pilling "mini" assignments to worry about.
and oso,
i haf lab skills theory and skills assessment nxt few wks
to worry about.
and oh the cuming NAPHA test
to worry about.
and the stuffs i wana buy but no money
to worry about.
dreads.
worry.
worry.
worry.
worry.
worry.

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i just wana lie down on the sandy beach
looking up at the birds flying free,
feeling the soft wind against my cheeks,
hearing the calming sound of the waves
and being mesmerized by the beautiful blue sky.

i need a chill pill.

looking on the bright side,
i trained for NAPHA yest.
surprising yet true.
soooper refreshing.
my babats sure need a wake-up call.
i need my sweat to start pouring out.
i need the adrenaline rush.
i need the aches from both limbs.
i need to cleanse and purify my body system.
goodness!

honestly if i have all the time in e world,
i'd work my butt out every single day.
i wana get all my body mechanisms running.
in fact, i feel like getting out of dis lazy chair
and jump ard the house.
but hais.
sum things just hold me down.
i dont have a choice, do i?
haha!
EXCUSES.

im loving my new hairstyle.
minus the rosak split ends.
it's just sooooo different.
bye bye boring flat hair.
i love it. =)

i love you.
you love me.
we are happy family.
hais...
i totally miss my boyfriend.