bertahun sudah ku menunggu dirimuakhirnya kau menjadi millikkusukarnya untukku melupakanmukerna kau ku cintai selalutapi sayangkehadiran kekasih lamamudatang kembali mengenang cinta dahulumengapa ini semua harus berlakuapakah ini semua kerna dirikusedangkan aku cuma watak dalam percintaantak sanggup aku melepaskanmukau ibarat terperangkap di tengah lautantak tau mana arah untuk kau menujuandai kau pinta untuk melepaskanmuterpaksa aku turutkanmungkinkah ini suatu pengajarandi dalam percintaanive suffered once.
PLEASE DONT let me suffer again.
history is god damn repeating itself.y must u keep tings from me?
y muz it be a secret?
y muz our rlp be a lie?
im hurting inside..
my heart is bleeding.
my face is calm but
im crying.
tears flowing.
im dying.
i just wana hurt myself.do u noe dat?
have u ever been in ma place?
have u EVER spared a taught of wad i mite b feelin??
u kept saying tt u dun choose to be dis wae.
LIKE I WANT IT??
cant u do aniting about it?
y leave it to fate?
u told me to gv u some tym for ur probs.
"wadever it is".
i was patient enough to tolerate.
despite my inpatience and hot-temperedness
i tolerated.i waited.but wad does all dis waiting lead to?
more n more waiting.
"it will take some time,' u say.
finally i boils down to
1. No msg replies.
2. No answering of phone calls n none from him either.
3. No meetings.
FOR 2 WHOLE DAYS.
n wen i finalli received ur msg,
with my mood lighten up,
u said u needed more tym. AGAIN.
i just cried there n then.
while walking to school.
u ask, wether we shld continue dis
relationship,coz both are suffering.
u said its not ur fault
n dat made me cry harder.
coz i love u.
i love u too much to let go.
dont u feel the same wae?
the thought of bearing it all for so longjust to receive a heart-wrenching newsis just to much to handle.i cannot take it.
im not strong enough.
ya Allah, pls help me overcome dis obstacle
in wadever means.
maybe dis alwaes happensto pple who are too devoted and loyalto the one they love.