Saturday, December 16, 2006
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9:02 PM
in the meantime, i dun hv much in mindto blog.guess i'll make dis yet anoder short entry.i feel like my life is so uninterestingat dis pint of tym.bluehx!kays 1st.im so POKAI LAR.i need more money money.to shop shop shop.shoes, bottoms, tops, watch...I WANA SCREAMMMMMMM!kay nvm abt dat.hehe.
urgh.im nt too happy wifa particular grp member of mine.i wun mention names here.well, she shld be thankful 4 dat.hehs.kayy.as a grp member, she shld jolly well cooperate.she shld get her ass off and get things done.not sitting in a coner minding her own bisnesstrying to show oders she is the BOSS.n telling pple dt our meeting is CRAPn she has nutin to do wif it.if ur in, ur in.if u dun lik itden y the hell show ur face dwn deren reading ur story book lik u dun care.she shld nt even COME in the 1st place.lik wth.its unfortunate enuff for me tobe partners wif her.kay well, im not so choosy.as long as she get her work done.BUT~i can safely say dat i did 90% of the job.den wad is she doing,jus sit dere and act smart?i divided the task for her to completei gave sufficient time okay.PLUS i smsed her reminding to complete it.HOWEVER, she dint.lik wtf."kay i will gv u tmr." was wat she owaes says.tomorrow my FOOT.there are due dates for goodness sakes.if our oder members can do deir jobn completed demso y cant she?im the one struggling to finish things up.n i found out dat oders r olso doing tings 4 her.wen i asked y,dey saed" ohhh sh'e alwaes bz one."LIKE WE'RE NOT BUSY TOO.dat was wad i saed in her presence.i told dem," eh, stop it lar. let her do, its her work!"den dey jus make the irritated facen point fingers at her.im so frustrated la.feel lik telling off to her facedat its a TEAM effort not solo.lik wadever.nuff said.brbs.......................................................................
pple may ask y i gave dis rlp anoder chance.to tell de truth,i swore i din tink dis rlp wld happen again.but to put it simply, i still hv feelings for him.n so does he.so, we chose to start anew.hehe.dee's response was so cute wen i told herabt us."yyyyyyyyyy??? den nvr tell me la u!!"HAHAHA.despite the fact tt we parted twice aldy.bt smthn bothers me still.will we end up the same?will history repeat itself?dat, we dun noe.n we dun wana noe.for evry rlp has its own risks.and its up to us weder we wana take dose risks.n cos of dat,decided to be honest wif him.told hw insecured i feel.n not being able to luv him wholeheartedly.all becos i dun wana b broken again..it was sad news for himand he wasnt able to accept it at 1st.turns out he too was insecured abt me,assumimg tt i hv feelings for anoder guy.the thoughts bothers him alot.he confessed having sleepless nightstinking if dere's 2 guys in my heart.i nvr knew tt he was so disturbed.hehe.tt made me realise hw impt i am to him.bt i prove to him that,we have to be honest to build trusts in rlps.n i thank him lots 4 being honest.all for the simple fact that,i love him.n he loves me.n we wana make it happen.pray for us to make it happen.insyaAllah.Come wat may~
token of our luv~ =))luv u lots!!04/12/04nisa.wan.forever.