Friday, May 18, 2007
{ freed on
12:40 AM
let me take a step back and evaluate my life..ive been thinking alot to maself.how long will this continue?even if its settled, will it bother me again?why cant i just express my feelings?why does it affect me more then others?am i too sensitive to feel what i feel?why do i smile and laugh on the surfacebut cringe and cry when nobody's noticing?why must i put on a facade and pretend nothin is wrong?why do i let others hurt me and not make it knownthat im hurt?why am i trying to feel what others want me to feelbut in fact im not feeling that way?why am i always thinking of others BUT not myself?what's wrong with me?why cant u trust me as much as i trusted u?
why am i too soft-hearted?I feel lonely.so lonely to the extent that i feel single.sumtyms im unsure if u miss me.but i miss you.trying to occupy my time wif frens and school.why?to take my mind off u.cnt meet, cnt contact even?dont be surprised if one day i totally forget about u.why?because you're drifting away.you're disappearing.i wana spend tym wif u.but i cant.i think too much?i'm too sensitive?it doesnt matter.im just expressing myself.I love you.i want you back.
Learn to understand a girl's feelings.i feel so lonely..