im feeling half the workload on my shoulders now. However, my dearest preceptor is not around to guide me. We're ALWAYS of different shift. and now she's on NIGHT. and im not gona do night shift until i stabilise my foundation 1st. The thought of juggling many patients with so few staff is making me worried. for the moment im tagging along with whichever SN tts free to teach me. bleahs...

and the past two weeks ive been hugging the case notes. so many things to read. so many stuffs to document. and check. and think. and make phone calls. whats not documented is equal to not done. so im playing it safe by writing every single event that i can remember. that is IF i can remember. which most of the time i dont. haha. im doing lesser of bedside nursing, i admit.

Im taking three cases per day. as compared to my friends, they're taking SIX. i need to get hold of myself before progressing furthur. NO use taking six patients but nt doing a gd job. I NEED MY PRECEPTOR DAMMIT. -_-

i just need to breathe and suck everyting in. even if i need to scream at someone, let it only be me. at times people are just threading my last nerve. i feel like an actress and they are my audience. i need to put on my sweetest smile as they are constantly judging me. what matters now is the simplest ting in life that makes my day. A word of thanks and much appreciated smile from them do wonders.

put everything else aside. 10 more weeks to go....hehe

Baby i miss you.

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright

2 days of induction programme seems so relaxing.

(what kind of pose is this siaaa haha)

drug calculation test and we whispering the method and peeping into each other's answers. Flipping thru notes and playing guessing games with the MCQs.some questions seem to speak of alien language. It was challenging, but we managed to complete it.=)

some things jus rob my attention away from the lectures. it is just unavoidable. The freaking coldness of the room and the superbly irritating guy beside me trying to LASTIK me wif a rubberband which hits my neck. and it doesnt stop with my punching and shooting him back. nanti kau tunggu je. nyehs. da semangat nak pay attention seh. haiz...

and i got a real nice preceptor. (from other's comments) =) im feelin lucky.

I miss my dear.

been awhile since we last met. talk on the fone macam tak puas.

both busy with own lives.

DUN GO WASH-WASH EYES KAY. later i go poke ur eyeballs. baru tau. hahaa...

somebody suggest i put a post a picture up.

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tadaaaa!!

new staffs (mostly just graduated juniors)

new environment (been a long while since ive been in MALE ward)

workflow was smooth-sailing (wasnt that hectic but im loving it)

warm and friendly collegues (smiles and appreciates the work that i do)

and yeah i counted that i only heard TWO call bells ringing through out the WHOLE SHIFT. (so that means male patients rarely call out for assistance laaa kan-haha)

and best of all..........................

my nursing officer aka ward "BROTHER" is on MC.

so the four of us preceptees had to find our way thru the ward like lost sheep. no orientation watsoever (wich i dun really mind.)

and...........

we have YET to find out who our preceptor is for the whole of that 3months. which means we have YET to find out about our work schedules and shift duties. can have cardiac arrest man.

im just hoping and praying that my staff nurse is a good one. and this final posting is smooth-sailing. hurhur.

and wtf, freaking jealous of ngee ann students whipping out portable PDAs wif nursing diagnosis and medication infos all-in-one. its like carrying my bulky Lemone textbook around siaaa. ours is just scraps of paper. bleahs...

and so tomorow is our induction programme. huhu...but still in the holiday mood.

PS: SUZANA WE GOT A NEW NAME FOR YOU ARDY EH. hahahaha. ETON. tak se-obit mane but still can la. welcome to the club. =)

"Since most of my entries talking about my friends being attached, I will proceed to Nisaaini. The minah,of cos. I realized she has improved a lot and as days go by. She no longer late for meet ups, prompt reply via sms and she is truly happy with her Akmal. Why not since she got the green light from her family? I would consider that she is truly blessed after what have happened to her in the past.

P.S. Akmal, cherished her and get engaged or something cos u both r so mushy n lovey dovey" -from honeysticky.multiply.com aka saloma

wahahaha.. love ya gurlfwen. =) jus be careful on who u mix ard with. u never noe a person's true colours. what happened to u in the past was freaky lahh. hope smthn like that wont happen again. watever it is, we will be there to guard u from any danger or harm. hehe! and im always here to lend a listening ear if need be. u can count on me...without a doubt babe.

and btw, i noe im rarely late for meetups now rite.. duwan to be labelled the star karat in the grp. hehe! tho i used to be famous for that. (miss the tyms of strolling into the lecturehall late with muke slumber) and i also notice that u guys rarely pull pranks on me and bully me nowadays. thats good... haha. kesiankan lah normah..=(

haha.. for us to get engaged? kau giler eh. not so early babe. now i wana focus on getting my diploma and securing a gd job. want to be a gd missy. hehe. but i noe that ive found the one that i wana spent my life with. btw thanks for the well wishes.=)

sedih ah korang sume posted to surgical ward. aku sorang je medical. haha. but i noe i made this choice and i hope its the correct one. counting down to PRCP! =/