so its been two weeks.
im feeling half the workload on my shoulders now. However, my dearest preceptor is not around to guide me. We're ALWAYS of different shift. and now she's on NIGHT. and im not gona do night shift until i stabilise my foundation 1st. The thought of juggling many patients with so few staff is making me worried. for the moment im tagging along with whichever SN tts free to teach me. bleahs...
and the past two weeks ive been hugging the case notes. so many things to read. so many stuffs to document. and check. and think. and make phone calls. whats not documented is equal to not done. so im playing it safe by writing every single event that i can remember. that is IF i can remember. which most of the time i dont. haha. im doing lesser of bedside nursing, i admit.
Im taking three cases per day. as compared to my friends, they're taking SIX. i need to get hold of myself before progressing furthur. NO use taking six patients but nt doing a gd job. I NEED MY PRECEPTOR DAMMIT. -_-
i just need to breathe and suck everyting in. even if i need to scream at someone, let it only be me. at times people are just threading my last nerve. i feel like an actress and they are my audience. i need to put on my sweetest smile as they are constantly judging me. what matters now is the simplest ting in life that makes my day. A word of thanks and much appreciated smile from them do wonders.
put everything else aside. 10 more weeks to go....hehe
Baby i miss you.
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright